Friday Inspiration 5.30.14

Friday Inspiration 5.30.14

This verse is beautiful to read as a woman. It’s such an elegant picture. In the NIV it says in Isaiah 62:

For Zion’s sake I will not keep silent,
for Jerusalem’s sake I will not remain quiet,
till her vindication shines out like the dawn,
her salvation like a blazing torch.
2 The nations will see your vindication,
and all kings your glory;
you will be called by a new name
that the mouth of the Lord will bestow.
3 You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord’s hand,
a royal diadem in the hand of your God.

The picture of being a crown in God’s hand, a tiara in the hands of the King is amazing to me. A diadem by definition is a crown that is worn especially by a king or queen as a symbol of royalty; a jeweled crown or headband worn as a symbol of sovereignty; royal dignity or authority. He regards you as this beauty as this splendor.

Today I have terrible allergies in my eyes. My eyelids are swollen and I kind of found myself blinded by the sunlight wearing my glasses today on the walk to work. Right before I got to the building a dragonfly swooped over and landed in my hair. On the top of my head. Granted my involuntarily reaction working in Manhattan was “Ew Pigeon” and I swooped it off my head but afterwards I realized it was kind of cute.

Being a fan of all things Google I decided to investigate the dragonfly when I got to the office. “I learned that the dragonfly gains her power from the sunlight. Her brilliant colors come from the reflection of light. Dragonflies are reminders that we are light and can reflect the light in powerful ways if we choose to do so.” –

That image was pretty powerful to me. I was momentarily blinded in a most nerdy way with my swollen eyes and glasses but once I regained vision, pow, dragonfly. I was intrigued and snooped around some more and actually found some information about eyeballs. Neat:

“As human beings, we have just one lens in each eye. A dragonfly
has many lenses in each eye – actually, some 20,000 – 30,000 lenses. In a sense, a dragonfly really has 20,000 – 30,000 eyes! A dragonfly sees through all these eyes at once, and as a result it can see all 360 degrees around it. Can you imagine looking at things with eyes like a dragonfly’s?

The life lesson the dragonfly teaches us in this instance is that we need to look at
our fears with new eyes – with a broader perspective. Rather than narrowly
focusing on the fear itself, magnifying it and allowing it to paralyze us, we can look at our fears as opportunities. Fear can be an opportunity for safety. Sometimes our fears cause us to move away from a harmful situation. Sometimes our fears lead to new growth. We can become stronger and healthier when we learn to face our fears and look at them with new eyes. Sometimes our fears can deepen our trust. Psalm 27:1 says “The Lord is my Light and my Salvation. Whom shall I fear or dread? The Lord is the Refuge and Stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid?”

Did you notice how many wings a dragonfly has? It has four wings – two pairs that operate independently. The dragonfly is the planet’s fastest flying insect, with a top speed between 35 and 45 mph. Dragonflies can move in all six directions – forward, backward, left, right, up, and down. They can hover like a helicopter, corkscrew, turn 180 degrees, and stop on a dime. And they do all this with complete elegance and grace. Amazing! Scientists tell us that there are more than 5,500 species of dragonflies worldwide, with about 450 species in America alone. As human beings we are quite diverse as well. We must also learn what is special and unique about us. Our calling is not to do what everyone else is doing. Our task is to seek out what God has prepared for us to do, and then to do that with all our might. Do you feel comfortable being yourself, or do you feel like you need to pretend? My encouragement is that you take this life lesson from the dragonfly, and be YOU! –

Click to access lifelessonsfromdragonflies.pdf

That sounds pretty good. The dragonfly is really great at seeing things all around them as they fly around quickly and in various flight patterns. Each one is unique. I think this is a cool picture for how to look at ourselves. We are all crowns of creation to God and he equips us to be able to see with 20/20 vision–and all around us. Not only that but he equips us to maneuver through life with elegance and grace. One of my favorite findings was that “according to Dr. Javaan Chahl, the quick aerial movements allow the dragonfly to disguise itself as a motionless object” –

I found that so awesome because a lot of time you feel like you are a stationary object. You aren’t advancing in your career, you aren’t on the marriage or baby track, and sometimes you can feel like you aren’t moving. But don’t you see? That’s the secret weapon. The Enemy might think there is nothing special about you, people in your life might be disappointed in where your life is and had bigger aspirations for you, but while they are tricked into thinking your movements are motionless, in reality you are flying. In the same article is mentions that the military is interested in this type of motion “they recognize the incredible implications for technological development—from the ability of fighter aircraft to approach the enemy undetected, to greater maneuverability, to enhanced helicopter logistics.” But what if we look at ourselves as that “fighter aircraft”. Imagine that we are more than a crown and greater than a dragonfly because in this life we are in battle and we have the God-given abilities to approach the enemy undetected–even if all around us–even to ourselves we look stationary.

What a beautiful walk to work.

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Thursday Inspiration 5.29.14

Thursday Inspiration 5.29.14

This is a great reminder on a Thursday because so often in the work week you are striving towards the joy ahead (ahem, Friday). I think it’s a great opportunity to check your perspective and make sure you are not taking anything that happens to you too hard or seriously. At the end of the day–time will pass and what seems like a big deal won’t be later on. I personally cannot WAIT for the joy that awaits me. For the surprises God has yet to reveal in my life.

A Reflection for trials:

Psalm 18:

1-2 I love you, God—
you make me strong.
God is bedrock under my feet,
the castle in which I live,
my rescuing knight.
My God—the high crag
where I run for dear life,
hiding behind the boulders,
safe in the granite hideout.
3 I sing to God, the Praise-Lofty,
and find myself safe and saved.
4-5 The hangman’s noose was tight at my throat;
devil waters rushed over me.
Hell’s ropes cinched me tight;
death traps barred every exit.
6 A hostile world! I call to God,
I cry to God to help me.
From his palace he hears my call;
my cry brings me right into his presence—
a private audience!
7-15 Earth wobbles and lurches;
huge mountains shake like leaves,
Quake like aspen leaves
because of his rage.
His nostrils flare, bellowing smoke;
his mouth spits fire.
Tongues of fire dart in and out;
he lowers the sky.
He steps down;
under his feet an abyss opens up.
He’s riding a winged creature,
swift on wind-wings.
Now he’s wrapped himself
in a trenchcoat of black-cloud darkness.
But his cloud-brightness bursts through,
spraying hailstones and fireballs.
Then God thundered out of heaven;
the High God gave a great shout,
spraying hailstones and fireballs.
God shoots his arrows—pandemonium!
He hurls his lightnings—a rout!
The secret sources of ocean are exposed,
the hidden depths of earth lie uncovered
The moment you roar in protest,
let loose your hurricane anger.
16-19 But me he caught—reached all the way
from sky to sea; he pulled me out
Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos,
the void in which I was drowning.
They hit me when I was down,
but God stuck by me.
He stood me up on a wide-open field;
I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
20-24 God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I got my act together,
he gave me a fresh start.
Now I’m alert to God’s ways;
I don’t take God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works;
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I’m watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.
25-27 The good people taste your goodness,
The whole people taste your health,
The true people taste your truth,
The bad ones can’t figure you out.
You take the side of the down-and-out,
But the stuck-up you take down a peg.
28-29 Suddenly, God, you floodlight my life;
I’m blazing with glory, God’s glory!
I smash the bands of marauders,
I vault the highest fences.
30 What a God! His road
stretches straight and smooth.
Every God-direction is road-tested.
Everyone who runs toward him
Makes it.
31-42 Is there any god like God?
Are we not at bedrock?
Is not this the God who armed me,
then aimed me in the right direction?
Now I run like a deer;
I’m king of the mountain.
He shows me how to fight;
I can bend a bronze bow!
You protect me with salvation-armor;
you hold me up with a firm hand,
caress me with your gentle ways.
You cleared the ground under me
so my footing was firm.
When I chased my enemies I caught them;
I didn’t let go till they were dead men.
I nailed them; they were down for good;
then I walked all over them.
You armed me well for this fight,
you smashed the upstarts.
You made my enemies turn tail,
and I wiped out the haters.
They cried “uncle”
but Uncle didn’t come;
They yelled for God
and got no for an answer.
I ground them to dust; they gusted in the wind.
I threw them out, like garbage in the gutter.
43-45 You rescued me from a squabbling people;
you made me a leader of nations.
People I’d never heard of served me;
the moment they got wind of me they listened.
The foreign devils gave up; they came
on their bellies, crawling from their hideouts.
46-48 Live, God! Blessings from my Rock,
my free and freeing God, towering!
This God set things right for me
and shut up the people who talked back.
He rescued me from enemy anger,
he pulled me from the grip of upstarts,
He saved me from the bullies.
49-50 That’s why I’m thanking you, God,
all over the world.
That’s why I’m singing songs
that rhyme your name.
God’s king takes the trophy;
God’s chosen is beloved.
I mean David and all his children—

A reflection for the victory/joy that is coming:

Psalm 56:12

God, you did everything you promised,
and I’m thanking you with all my heart.
You pulled me from the brink of death,
my feet from the cliff-edge of doom.
Now I stroll at leisure with God
in the sunlit fields of life.

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Wednesday Inspiration 5.28.14

Wednesday Inspiration 5.28.14

This verse is one of the more challenging ones for me. In the Message it translates “You’re not yet taking God seriously,” said Jesus. “The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy seed, say, you would tell this mountain, ‘Move!’ and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn’t be able to tackle.” Can you imagine having THAT much faith? We say that with God anything is possible but moving a mountain? I don’t even want to CLIMB a mountain.

There are still areas of my life long dead. I’m still waiting for a new job, a relationship, the salvation of my dad, a solid group of friends and financial breakthrough just to name a few. But God wants me and you to remember than even a tiny fleck of faith can move mountains–even the ones in our lives. In Romans 15:13 it proclaims “Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!” I like that picture. Green hope. Fresh hope. The first sign of spring after a harsh winter. Our God is a god of GREEN hope.

I want to be the John 1 version of myself always –“my true self, my child-of-God self”. I never want to be crippled by doubt, anxiety, or intimidation in the face of mountains. I want to continue to grow day by day and have the mountains flee from my path.

Luke 1:45 “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”

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Keep Calm and Shine On

I had a dream a few nights ago. I didn’t really think it had much significance because it was so weird but today it came to mind as I was waiting for my bus to work and I told my mom about it. I don’t remember the dream being very long and I believe it was right before I woke up. I was with a group of girls my age. As we were moving around I had an awareness that something was on my face and went to go look in the mirror. When I looked at my reflection there was almost a blue glitter gel (think the 90s and body glitter) smeared across my forehead and nose mixed in with dark blue confetti flecks. I was surprised by what I saw and I just remember saying out loud “Why didn’t anyone tell me?”.

I’m still at a loss for what this could possibly mean as I’m writing this. The only suggestion my mom had was that she thinks a forehead symbolizes wisdom. I decided today that I would try to look into this and see if I could find anything interesting about my dream.

Symbols in my dream and what I associate with them:

Mirror- Reflection of self

Glitter- Sparkly

Blue- Calm/peaceful color

Forehead- Knowledge

Bridge of Nose/Nose- Center of your face, used for smell

Symbols in my dream according to the Bible:

Mirror- God’s Word i.e. the Bible  2 Corinthians 3:18, James 1:23-25, Corinthians 13:12

Glitter- N/A..:)

Blue- Glory of God Ezekiel 1:26, Heavenly Exodus 24:10, Holy Clothing Exodus 38:36-38

Forehead- Strength/Endurance Ezekiel 3:9, Frontals/Protection/Reminder Exodus 13:9 Deuteronomy 11:18-19, Consecration Exodus 28:36-38, Seal of God/Property of God Revelation 9:4

Bridge of Nose/Nose- Discernment i.e. being able to distinguish smells like in Exodus 29:18 compared to Leviticus 26:31

After spending much of the daylight hours today looking into various Bible verses I actually found a lot of interesting things that I never knew. For starters in the dream I was looking at my reflection and surprised at what I saw looking back at me. I wasn’t embarrassed but I was just confused as to why the people I was with didn’t tell me something was on my face i.e. when you have broccoli in your teeth you want someone to tell you. So I see myself in the mirror and reflected back is God’s Word  and what He sees “God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We’re free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him” – 2 Corinthians 3:18. How awesome is that? I didn’t recognize myself but God did. My reflection was not of my self but it was of my God self. I could clearly see myself as God sees me–with the brightness of His face–glittering. Maybe in the dream I saw my true likeness, “as clearly as God sees (me), knowing him directly just as he knows (me)!” – Corinthians 13:12. So often people “glance in the mirror, walk away, and two minutes later have no idea who they are, what they look like” but we need to be affirmed by what God sees instead of what the world sees or we see with human eyes -James 1:23-25. 

But what’s the deal with the fact that it wasn’t my entire face? Right? Not to worry, I looked into that.

The first verse I found about foreheads was in Ezekiel 3:9 “I will make your forehead like the hardest stone, harder than flint. Do not be afraid of them or terrified by them, though they are a rebellious people.” According to a commentary on John Gill explains that the word flint derives from the word adamant and “adamant has its name in Greek, because it cannot be conquered or subdued, neither by the hammer, nor by fire; the one cannot break, nor this other consume is called “shamir” in will cut iron in pieces, which is harder than stone, and therefore must be harder than that. Bochart takes it to be the same with “smiris”, a hard stone, which jewelers use to polish their gems with. The design of the simile is to set forth the courage and fortitude of mind…in order to face an impudent and hardhearted people.” Adamant in the adjective form means “refusing to be persuaded or to change one’s mind”. How COOL is that? So when you add that together with my true image in the mirror, the God-image and add the forehead aspect to it it becomes a picture of God fortifying my mind. Making it a hard stone that will not be thrown off by people who do not understand me as a person or God as savior. Jesus is the jeweler in this case and my mind is his gem–and He is polishing it up, #shinebabyshine. Or my head is the flint and Jesus is the Rock and together a spark forms and we create fire.

The next verse I found was in Deuteronomy 11:18-19 “You shall therefore lay up these words of mine in your heart and in your soul, and you shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. A frontlet or frontal is a decoration for an altar or an adornment for your forehead. I like that second definition because of the adornment of glitter on my forehead. In this case the word of God is the adornment or the sparkle on me. A reminder of His word. In some websites this was referred to as a kind of  “phylactery” which are items used to keep scrolls or scriptures on hand. Some people wore these on their literal heads between their eyes or on their arms and hands. With this in mind, pun intended, this could be God’s way of telling me to remember His words as I look in the “mirror”. To see myself only through them and nothing else. “Now consider this: Thousands of years before man developed the modern sciences and determined what parts of the brain are responsible for the various human behaviors and activities, YHWH told man to keep His words “on your forehead”. Touch your forehead. Go ahead. No one is watching. Just a fraction of an inch beyond your fingertips is the PREFRONTAL CORTEX. God told us to keep His word there. Keeping His word there keeps us from processing worldly desires and events” –

Lastly foreheads are alluded to in Revelation 9:4 ” Make a plate of pure gold. Engrave on it as on a seal: ‘Holy to God.’ Tie it with a blue cord to the front of the turban. It is to rest there on Aaron’s forehead…it will always be on Aaron’s forehead so that the offerings will be acceptable before God.” That is a cool picture. Almost like you are stamped/engraved with a Seal of are Property of God. If lost–return to sender. Right? Haha! In this regard it is a way of God marking His territory.

Now for noses. In the Bible there was a lot of weird verses about noses and none of them had anything to do with my dream. I did however end up going on an unexpected tangent about God’s “nose” and smells. In Psalm 103:8 it says “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love”. What they don’t tell you is slow to anger in Hebrew translates to “long of nose”. It’s the same word that is used in Exodus 34:6 ..”compassionate, gracious, long-suffering and great in goodness”. “The idea is simple.  If God takes a long breath, His anger is delayed.  The longer His nose, the longer it takes for Him to come to judgment rather than mercy.  And God has a very long nose!” – That’s just awesome to think about. God is slow to anger and takes a deep breath. So not only is my nose important–God’s nose is. My nose is full of the same breath that God breathed into mankind’s nostrils–the breath of Life. And if He is slow to anger and gracious I should be too. My life should be a fragrant offering to Heaven. One of the best finds of today was an article called “Ooh, That Smell”

God ordained worship to be full of sweet fragrances and pleasing aromas. True worship was meant to smell good. Untrue worship, on the other hand, produces a foul stench, a rank odor. The actions of God’s people in worship will possess a potent smell. Those immersed in worship would go away bearing the divine aroma into the world.

Your Unique Scent

We each possess a unique scent. In her fascinating book, A Natural History of the Senses,Diane Ackerman writes, “Each person has an odor as individual as a fingerprint. A dog can identify it easily and recognize its owner even if he or she is one of a pair of identical twins.”[5]Struck totally deaf and blind by a mysterious illness at nineteen months, Helen Keller (1880-1968) noted this regarding our unique scent: “human odors are as varied and capable of recognition as hands and faces. The dear odors of those I love are so definite, so unmistakable, that nothing can quite obliterate them.”[6] She believed this odor collects over time, since she was convinced that all infants smell alike: “I wonder if others observe that all infants have the same scent – pure, simple, undecipherable as their dormant personality.”[7]

Just as our bodies possess their own unique scent, over time our attitudes and actions create a certain unique spiritual scent. The question is: Are we putting off a sweet fragrance or a foul stench? Just as we pay attention to make sure our bodies exude a nice smell through the use of perfumes and deodorants, we should also pay attention to the spiritual smells we exude through our attitudes and actions.

The scriptures call us to make our lives a fragrant aroma to God. We do this by carrying the odor of Christ to others. Though many are unaware of this, the very name “Christ” carries with it the memory of sacred smell. “Christ” is Greek for “the Anointed One.” His name reminds us of the sweet fragrance of the unique anointing oil of sacred worship. Because of this, when we carry Christ with us, we carry his sacred odor. For this reason, Paul writes,

But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads in every place the fragrance that comes from knowing him. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing; to the one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. Who is sufficient for these things? (2 Corinthians 2:14-16)


With that in mind God knows us–He knows the hairs on our head, what we smell like, and other sensory information. In that way smell and our noses discern things and can distinguish between good and bad and also information that we long forgot.

All in all I think my dream served a purpose in that in reminded me of who I am as a daughter of the King and showed me some new characteristics of God. It reminded me of who I should see in the mirror because God sees me as that reflection at all times.


More information on symbols:

Blue – and Stones:

Mirror –


Tuesday Inspiration 5.27.14

Tuesday Inspiration 5.27.14

I know it’s easy to wonder where God is when you have questions or are suffering. Even Jesus Himself cried out to God when He was on the cross and shouted “My God, My God, Why have You forsaken me?”. While Jesus knew He was being sent to die. while He didn’t understand it, in Luke 22:42 He was bold enough to pray “Father, if You are willing, remove this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.” He might not have wanted what was coming, He might have been scared, He might have wished for another way, and yet He still told God–it’s your call.

I know I have wondered where God is sometimes. In dark times it’s extremely hard not to feel ignored or abandoned by Him. But I think this is a good perspective change. It’s good to remember that God IS here and to ask Him to reveal Himself to us. It’s like a game of Marco Polo. Your eyes are closed and even though You might not see anything around you–you can call out and You will hear a voice. You keep calling out and waiting for a reply and that will guide you closer and closer to the person replying to you until they are close enough to touch. The same goes with Jesus.

I love the tiny detail in John 11:42 when Jesus prays to God “I know that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here”.  Jesus showed us that God always hears us–not because He didn’t know that already but because He knows that we wouldn’t. That we would go through times where we would forget. He did it for our benefit.

So if you are experiencing a specific situation or season where you do not see God in whatever is happening remind yourself of a few things:

1. God always hears you (John 11:42)
2. When you call to Him, He will answer and be at your side in bad times; not only will He rescue you, but He will throw you a party when He does (Psalm 91:11-16)
3. You will become strong and bold to speak to Him (1 John 5:14)
4. Pray no matter what the season (Are you hurting? Pray. Do you feel great? Sing. Are you sick? Call the church leaders together to pray and anoint you with oil in the name of the Master – James 5:13-14)

I pray Psalm 90:14-17 over everyone who reads this today including myself:

“Surprise us with love at daybreak; then we’ll skip and dance all the day long. Make up for the bad times with some good times; we’ve seen enough evil to last a lifetime. Let your servants see what you’re best at – the ways you rule and bless your children. And let the loveliness of our Lord, our God, rest on us, confirming the work that we do. Oh, yes. Affirm the work that we do!”

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Monday Inspiration 5.26.14

Monday Inspiration 5.26.14

In light of the Memorial Day holiday this picture can have more than one meaning. As an American citizen I should be thankful for those who fought on my behalf. It’s a good time to reflect and be grateful that others went to war in order to defend my freedom. However more often than not–people don’t attend a parade, or thank a Veteran or anything that has to do with the holiday. They live in the benefits of that sacrifice but don’t acknowledge the source.

I think that can be said for Jesus as well. Jesus came to Earth to walk as a man, to suffer as humans suffer, to feel as humans feel, and to die as humans die. He created freedom for us through His death–taking on penalties He did not deserve and yet many people either do not walk in that at all because they choose to not know God or they have been set free but are still living as if they are held back by their past.

Today I challenge us to be grateful for our freedom. Both on an American and Christian level.

I am set free. You are set free. And it’s time to walk boldly in that that.

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Friday Inspiration 5.23.14

Friday Inspiration 5.23.14

On days where people are less than professional to you it’s easy to fall into former patterns of thinking like “I gotta get out of here”, “I can’t wait to give my two weeks notice”, etc. I had a moment like that yesterday. I tried really hard to find a GIF of the Beast from Beauty and the Beast where he yells so loud in her face that her hair blows back. Hahaha. Because that’s what it felt like but the best I could find was YouTube:

It’s funny looking back but it’s really embarrassing/annoying/disrespectful at the time. If I’m honest some days it’s hard to feel like the pain I’m feeling or what I’m going through is worth it. I believe that God has me here for a purpose, but it doesn’t always seem like I’m breaking through to anyone here. People are still nasty to one another. People are still cursed at. People are still having medical issues from stress. It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. On my worst days it’s hard not to believe that this is “as good as it gets” for me. That while people have their great jobs, great fulfillment in their callings, and whatnot, that  just isn’t what I’m here to do. I wasn’t put here to have that good life. Emo–but valid. Still I try to fight against that when it surges up and remind myself of scripture:

James 1:12 GNT “Happy are those who remain faithful under trials, because when they succeed in passing such a test, they will receive as their reward the life which God has promised to those who love him.”

Deuteronomy 7:9 GNT “Remember that the Lord your God is the only God and that he is faithful. He will keep his covenant and show his constant love to a thousand generations of those who love him and obey his commands”

1 Peter 1 MSG “Grass dries up, flowers droop, God’s Word goes on and on forever.”

In the light of everything I know my God is faithful and that the joy that lies ahead is something that He is preparing me for now.

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Thursday Inspiration 5.22.14

Thursday Inspiration 5.22.14

I think this is a good reminder for any day. God is making things happen even when you can’t see it or feel it. He is always listening to your prayers. I’ve grown a lot over the past 2 years in my faith. I never used to realize how much of a control freak I was over certain things in my life. Overall I am very laid back and go with the flow. I let people be who they are, nothing really rattles me. However I’ve seen how my career, provision for my life, and organizing my present and future was getting a little out of hand. There were times where I wouldn’t buy anything at all because my outlook was just pay bills, get out of debt, have a cushion for when your family can’t pay a bill, etc. It was unhealthy. Or I would search search search for a new job and it consumed every moment thinking should I apply for this, or should I call this person back again–instead of just resting. I’ve learned to be less of a doer and more of a receiver. God doesn’t want me to be a Martha. Running around like a chicken without a head when I should be more like Mary sitting at His feet and resting knowing He will work it all out.

Psalm 143 is a good example of this cry of my heart:

7-10 Hurry with your answer, God!
I’m nearly at the end of my rope.
Don’t turn away; don’t ignore me!
That would be certain death.
If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice,
I’ll go to sleep each night trusting in you.
Point out the road I must travel;
I’m all ears, all eyes before you.
Save me from my enemies, God—
you’re my only hope!
Teach me how to live to please you,
because you’re my God.
Lead me by your blessed Spirit
into cleared and level pastureland.

I want to always be the kind of daughter that “goes to sleep every night trusting” my Father and who is “all ears” and “all eyes” before Him. So often we are tempted to figure it all out and be self-reliant and yet, that’s not what God asks from us. If anything it is offensive to Him because he wants so badly for us to trust Him. In Hebrews 11 5-6 it says “it’s impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.” It’s all about that relationship–the trust that comes along with it.

And the funny thing about all of this is that He didn’t wait for me to be okay with letting go. Over time you just learn that you can’t handle anything anymore. And the more I let go of taking care of my future myself, being financially crippled, not knowing how to improve in my career and advance, the more honestly–it makes sense why I struggled with anxiety. You don’t realize how tightly you held on to things until you give them to God. It’s in our weakness that we are strong because we finally surrender our human strength for His unrivaled strength. In Romans 5:6-8 it says that “Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn’t, and doesn’t, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn’t been so weak, we wouldn’t have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.” God can do anything but He’s also not forceful. He will wait for our own strength to run out so we can finally look up and reach out for His. Otherwise we can’t be much use to Him if we are still adamant on spinning the tires.

My prayer is that I always remember Isaiah 40:27-31:

“Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening?
God doesn’t come and go. God lasts.
He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.

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Light ’em Up

At 9:23 am today I had a vision.

I was thinking about how absolutely wonderful last night’s Sisterhood at Irving Plaza was and how much of a girl crush I have on Holly Wagner now (No shame: lady can dress and lady can preach). Anyway I was thinking about how she said that she was passionate about women around the world standing up and coming into their own. I agree. I’m passionate about women and I’m passionate about being a woman. And then this is what I saw before me.

I saw a hand holding a lit torch. I saw the hand point the torch down to a rope that then caught on fire. The room was black and covered in darkness. The fire ate away the rope slowly until it reached it’s destination. One dark silhouette then exploded in light. Like a spotlight was turned on. It was a woman. The fire continued to another dark spot in the room. Another silhouette exploded in light. It was another woman. And like a chain reaction this happened over and over until the whole room was illuminated and full of women.

And you know what my first thought was? That would make a cool video for Sisterhood. Hahaha. That would be a cool dance number. That would be an awesome visual.

“She rises while it is still night” – Proverbs 31:15 In the midst of darkness we should light the match. We should set off a chain reaction to help all of our sisters light up the night.

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Wednesday Inspiration 5.21.14

Wednesday Inspiration 5.21.14

When I saw this I knew it was great. I’m currently wearing no make-up at work, hair in a messy bun, but I genuinely don’t care. I recall at 17 being the kind of girl with bad skin who NEVER wanted to take off her makeup at a sleepover. But now–I’ve outgrown it. I genuinely don’t care. And that is a beautiful thing because I know the physical is not my most important attribute. I think so often it is easy to fall into the traps of what you believe being attractive is or in America what the standard of beauty is, but this is a true model according to God’s word of what a real “make-over” looks like. No plastic surgery needed. Just His scalpel:

Hebrews 4:12-13 MSG “God means what he says. What he says goes. His powerful Word is sharp as a surgeon’s scalpel, cutting through everything, whether doubt or defense, laying us open to listen and obey. Nothing and no one is impervious to God’s Word. We can’t get away from it—no matter what.”

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