I think this is a good reminder for any day. God is making things happen even when you can’t see it or feel it. He is always listening to your prayers. I’ve grown a lot over the past 2 years in my faith. I never used to realize how much of a control freak I was over certain things in my life. Overall I am very laid back and go with the flow. I let people be who they are, nothing really rattles me. However I’ve seen how my career, provision for my life, and organizing my present and future was getting a little out of hand. There were times where I wouldn’t buy anything at all because my outlook was just pay bills, get out of debt, have a cushion for when your family can’t pay a bill, etc. It was unhealthy. Or I would search search search for a new job and it consumed every moment thinking should I apply for this, or should I call this person back again–instead of just resting. I’ve learned to be less of a doer and more of a receiver. God doesn’t want me to be a Martha. Running around like a chicken without a head when I should be more like Mary sitting at His feet and resting knowing He will work it all out.
Psalm 143 is a good example of this cry of my heart:
7-10 Hurry with your answer, God!
I’m nearly at the end of my rope.
Don’t turn away; don’t ignore me!
That would be certain death.
If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice,
I’ll go to sleep each night trusting in you.
Point out the road I must travel;
I’m all ears, all eyes before you.
Save me from my enemies, God—
you’re my only hope!
Teach me how to live to please you,
because you’re my God.
Lead me by your blessed Spirit
into cleared and level pastureland.
I want to always be the kind of daughter that “goes to sleep every night trusting” my Father and who is “all ears” and “all eyes” before Him. So often we are tempted to figure it all out and be self-reliant and yet, that’s not what God asks from us. If anything it is offensive to Him because he wants so badly for us to trust Him. In Hebrews 11 5-6 it says “it’s impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.” It’s all about that relationship–the trust that comes along with it.
And the funny thing about all of this is that He didn’t wait for me to be okay with letting go. Over time you just learn that you can’t handle anything anymore. And the more I let go of taking care of my future myself, being financially crippled, not knowing how to improve in my career and advance, the more honestly–it makes sense why I struggled with anxiety. You don’t realize how tightly you held on to things until you give them to God. It’s in our weakness that we are strong because we finally surrender our human strength for His unrivaled strength. In Romans 5:6-8 it says that “Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn’t, and doesn’t, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn’t been so weak, we wouldn’t have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.” God can do anything but He’s also not forceful. He will wait for our own strength to run out so we can finally look up and reach out for His. Otherwise we can’t be much use to Him if we are still adamant on spinning the tires.
My prayer is that I always remember Isaiah 40:27-31:
“Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening?
God doesn’t come and go. God lasts.
He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.
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