On days where people are less than professional to you it’s easy to fall into former patterns of thinking like “I gotta get out of here”, “I can’t wait to give my two weeks notice”, etc. I had a moment like that yesterday. I tried really hard to find a GIF of the Beast from Beauty and the Beast where he yells so loud in her face that her hair blows back. Hahaha. Because that’s what it felt like but the best I could find was YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6Qu15eyA_s
It’s funny looking back but it’s really embarrassing/annoying/disrespectful at the time. If I’m honest some days it’s hard to feel like the pain I’m feeling or what I’m going through is worth it. I believe that God has me here for a purpose, but it doesn’t always seem like I’m breaking through to anyone here. People are still nasty to one another. People are still cursed at. People are still having medical issues from stress. It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. On my worst days it’s hard not to believe that this is “as good as it gets” for me. That while people have their great jobs, great fulfillment in their callings, and whatnot, that just isn’t what I’m here to do. I wasn’t put here to have that good life. Emo–but valid. Still I try to fight against that when it surges up and remind myself of scripture:
James 1:12 GNT “Happy are those who remain faithful under trials, because when they succeed in passing such a test, they will receive as their reward the life which God has promised to those who love him.”
Deuteronomy 7:9 GNT “Remember that the Lord your God is the only God and that he is faithful. He will keep his covenant and show his constant love to a thousand generations of those who love him and obey his commands”
1 Peter 1 MSG “Grass dries up, flowers droop, God’s Word goes on and on forever.”
In the light of everything I know my God is faithful and that the joy that lies ahead is something that He is preparing me for now.
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