The Other Woman

I’ve been cheated on before. In both of my relationships actually. It’s not a good time. So when I was watching the movie “The Other Woman” today I was surprised that it was lighthearted and funny. It didn’t bring up bad memories or anything. There was one scene where the married woman throws her rings into the ocean and a song started playing. It sounded Christian..which was surprising. And so I wanted to find it online. I saw it was by Britt Nicole and it got me thinking. No matter how dark a situation, the Son, Jesus has risen. And so we can also rise out of the darkness. We are invited to rise. No matter what we face: infidelity, uncertainty, loss, the death of a family member, financial crisis, etc we can always remember that it may be dark, but that darkness will never overcome.

 

“The Sun Is Rising”

When life has cut too deep and left you hurting
The future you had hoped for is now burning
And the dreams you held so tight lost their meaning
And you don’t know if you’ll ever find the healingYou’re gonna make it
You’re gonna make it
And the night can only last for so long

Whatever you’re facing
If your heart is breaking
There’s a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

The sun is rising

Every high and every low you’re gonna go through
You don’t have to be afraid I am with you
In the moments you’re so weak you feel like stopping
Let the hope you have light the road you’re walking

You’re gonna make it
You’re gonna make it
The night can only last for so long

Whatever you’re facing
If your heart is breaking
There’s a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

Even when you can’t imagine how
How you’re ever gonna find your way out
Even when you’re drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds

Just look beyond the clouds

Whatever you’re facing
If your heart is breaking
There’s a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

The sun is rising

Even when you can’t imagine how
How you’re ever gonna find your way out
Even when you’re drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds

Friday Inspiration 6.27.14

Friday Inspiration 6.27.14

It isn’t easy to die to yourself. I can be stubborn and my convictions can be strong at times and it can be difficult to realize more and more that God is in control and I’m not. Even though I do not understand–God does. The problem is that I WANT to understand. I WANT to be told why things are so hard or do not make sense. Ultimately I have to be okay with not understanding and just trusting that God is right on time and everything He orchestrates is for my good. At times this can be comforting but other times I find it frustrating. And I think that’s just human nature.

In the Hillsong Devotional “40 Days of Revival” it said “One of the best things about taking your place in the community of God’s people is the journey of discovering your unique purpose.” And I think that is definitely true. But I think it’s often under-estimated how painful that can be at the same time. As a child I would build little leaf homes out of sticks and grass and leaves for caterpillars. Literally. I would write my own stories and illustrate them with pictures. I would play with my Polly Pockets and Barbies. I always had a weird concern for things like creepy worms or wanting to make things with my hands, or creating stories. I had an active imagination. Growing up I didn’t really know what I was good at. I liked reading stories. I liked writing poems. I remember writing my first appreciated poem when I was maybe in 3rd or 4th grade for school. I didn’t like math or science. I always liked English, Social Studies, and creative arts. I guess I always assumed that I would do something with writing. All of that to say I know I am unique. I know there are many times where I feel different than others–kind of odd. But I’m okay with who I am. I appreciate who I am. And so discovering my specific purpose has often been a painful thing because I know what I enjoy. I know what I find interesting. I know what I care about. And often none of it really makes sense. I don’t know what my “purpose” is. Why God created me knowing I had something unique to offer the world. Knowing I was a special/different reflection of God’s creativity and love for the world.

The last part of the devotional for that specific day says “Take a moment today to write down your gifts and passions. Talk to God about how you can develop them and use them to bless others and build His church. Ask Him to help you find the right ‘place’ in HIs community so that you are not just present, but present in your ‘place’.” So I’ll awkwardly accept that challenge.

My list only taking 10 minutes to come up with (first thing that comes to mind):

Gifts – Problem solving/looking for solutions when other people give up, empathy for other people’s feelings or experiences, laughter and the ability to find humor in bad situations, writing, organization, a creative eye for what looks good or would work, desire to be inclusive to anyone who might be looking for a helping hand or a friend, a good memory/the ability to remember small details, curiosity to try new things/learn..

Passions – People in general and sex trafficking specifically, writing, shopping, Jesus, a good book or a good tv show/movie, food i.e. shrimp tacos, a good steak, (I’m currently hungry) etc., meaningful relationships…

I’m sure there’s more but that’s all I can think of. So God I pray that you continue to show me what I mean to you and what you were thinking when you thought me up. Why am I here? What is my purpose? Why am I interested in so many things? WIll I ever be a writer? Let me know. Ha! I’ll be here. For now, I surrender who I’ve been/who I thought I was for who You are/who you’ve intended for me to be. Amen.

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Thursday Inspiration 6.26.14

Thursday Inspiration 6.26.14

Over-thinking situations can still be an area where I struggle. I never realized until the past couple of years how bad this really was. Instead of always trusting God 100% I can often over-think things and worry that I am wasting time, or going in a direction that doesn’t make sense. Today I received an offer from one of my interviews this past week and while I know it is the right decision there was a part of me that became discouraged afterwards. Don’t get me wrong I am happy that God answered my need so quickly for a replacement job but there is that small part of me that still wonders what I am doing in life and feels unhappy floating around when nothing is making much sense. I know a lot of people that are pursuing their passions, starting businesses, and basically just running after dreams that they really want. Instead I often feel like I have no idea what I am doing, where I am going, but try to just walk down the paths it appears God is directing me to.

I was reminded of this excerpt today:

“Waiting to see how you feel each day is never a good idea. Has anyone ever invited you to do something and you responded ‘Let me wait and see how I feel?’ That just gives the devil room to make sure you don’t feel like doing what you need to do or what can benefit you. We will sometimes have unpleasant times, but we don’t have to live by our feelings; we can choose to stand firm and be stable when we find our strength in the One Who never changes.” – Joyce Meyer “Power Thoughts”

In other words feelings are not facts. Just because I feel unhappy doesn’t mean this job/industry/decision is wrong. It just means it’s not where I thought I would be. It doesn’t mean that God isn’t right on time. It doesn’t mean I am wandering aimlessly. I can continue to trust God and find strength in the One who loves me and has my best interest at heart.

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Wednesday Inspiration 6.25.14

Wednesday Inspiration 6.25.14

During this season of unemployment I should feel lost. Anyone would understand that. I have always been someone who is lead by my feelings which can be a bad thing when negative feelings cloud reality i.e. self-doubt, anxiety, etc. However I can honestly say that I feel total peace in the midst of what has happened. Though I have no job, there has been no moment of sadness or worry. I 100% have the peace that passes understanding and I am grateful that God is holding my heart and my hand as I leave behind what I know for where I am going.

In the song “Oceans” by Hillsong United one verse says

“You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand”

I feel that now. I have be called out in the midst of a storm. Jesus is standing on the water telling me to not be afraid. I know from the Bible (Matthew 14:22-33) that Jesus will call us into depths we may not be ready to walk on. Speaking personally–I can’t really swim. I can but not well let’s just put it that way. There’s definitely hesitancy when going past waist-deep in any body of water where my feet can’t feel the ground. And yet Jesus is the type of person who invites you to walk on top of the water and out towards Him. In order to feel His power and security you need to remain focused on Him. Don’t look around you, don’t look down at what you are doing, look straight ahead.

I pray that I continue to look ahead in this season. While people around me might understand if I were to fall apart I know who holds me together and I can walk through this fire knowing Jesus is with me.

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Tuesday Inspiration 6.24.14

be here now

I have been trying to post this all day but WordPress has been giving me trouble with photos today. It’s been a bit discouraging in that way but in other news I had an interview on Monday and I have two more this week. God is good! Even though I don’t know where I am headed I am grateful that He does. I look forward to His provision. The photo had the words “Be Here Now”. So I am choosing to be in the moment with God now and am grateful for His peace while I wait.

Someone had sent me this e-mail last week and I loved it. It is “Flourish” By Malika Cox:

“It is that time of year again, when temperatures rise and the earth is in full bloom. We can enjoy bright blue skies and the heat of the sun. The outdoors is lush and flourishing and we look for reasons to escape the demands and pressures of life, so we can play and enjoy the beautiful days of summer.

It is the season where we feel full permission to remove as many clothes as possible without being arrested, so we can enjoy the kiss of the sun on our skin. Summer is known for passion and intensity and as the heat rises, so can our emotions. This can be for good or bad. Tempers can flare but so can our passion for what our soul truly longs to do.

The heat melts anything that’s frozen in our life. We eat ice cream quickly to avoid the mess, we drink our ice tea before the ice melts and the dreams we’ve left cold and dormant begin to pulse again. We sense that we were made for so much more than the life we are living now.

The season of summer reminds us that we were made for more. We have been fashioned with individual fingerprints and our own unique DNA for a life like no other on the planet. We are here for a reason. We are not insignificant. We were created for a mission.

We were made in the image of a magnificent omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, omnibenevolent infinite being. We were made for a close and intimate relationship with our designer. The more we know our manufacturer, the more we will step into the life, the calling, the destiny and the purpose we were made for.

As we invite the God of the universe into our life, we will begin to sense the purpose and plans we were made for. God from the beginning had us in mind. He conceived, designed, fashioned, and formed us for the time and place we are in right now. Everything in our life, whether good or bad, can shape us and mold us into the people we were destined to be.

There was a time when we were without the ability to know God and His purposes for our life. God loves us too much to allow a separation to hinder us from His love and plans. He sent His only begotten son, Jesus, to earth for us. He sent us God incarnate, in bodily form so we could truly know Him. The more we know Him, the more we will know who we are. Jesus walked a perfect life for us, died on the cross for our sins, and was raised from the dead for our justification. Now we are able to receive Jesus’s righteousness. God becomes our Heavenly Father. We are adopted into Heaven’s family and we are instantly children of God.

Now we can spend time with our Heavenly Father in our prayer times, discovering who He is and who we are. We are made in God’s image, so the more we know Him, the more we know ourselves. God delights in revealing who we are and what we were made for. As we spend time with Him we will get glimpses of our future and sense the magnitude of our destiny.

So the dreams we had when we were younger begin to make sense. Our preferences and inclinations are all a part of the design for our life. And as we grow in knowing God we will see that we are made to be a part of something bigger than ourselves. As we begin to spend time in the family of believers we will realize that our destiny is tied to others as well. God weaves our life with others into a beautiful tapestry for His eternal purposes. As we step into everything we are created for we will feel fully alive and fulfilled. Our capacity will enlarge and God will equip us for every good work that He has prepared for us in advance.

With God all things are possible. He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we can hope, think or ask. So we can relax in knowing that the God of the Universe is ever at work, bringing to pass His plans and purposes for our life; and our part is to believe and receive. We will then be able to effortlessly step into God’s great design and mission for our life.”

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Monday Inspiration 6.23.14

Monday Inspiration 6.23.14

On Friday I was laid off from my job. You know what? I haven’t felt sad, or guilty, or any negative feeling since. As a Christian you can often hear things like “the peace that passes all understanding” and feel cynical about it when you go through the hard times. In this situation though, I truly believe it. It would be normal to be worried, to feel sad, to re-hash every action you made at your job and wonder if there was anything you did to deserve it or to worry about how you are going to make ends meet. Instead–I feel weightless. Coming from someone who can be a little bit of an anxiety-ridden control freak this is huge.

In the Power Thoughts devotional it says “God’s Word teaches us to remain stable during every storm of life. The first mistake we often make is listening to the “This is just too hard” lie. Satan is a liar, and he always puts thoughts into our minds that say we are not capable, can’t, won’t, and never will be able to do what God has asked of us. The devil is a glass-half-empty guy, but God always sees the glass as full and overflowing. Choose to adopt GOd’s attitude and be an I-think-I-can-person, instead of an I-think-I-can’t person. If you believe you can remain stable and control your emotions even during times in which it is difficult to do so, you will find God working through your faith and enabling you to do what you believe.” How good is that?

I believe God ordained my lay off. So often I have felt beat down and finally I am set free. He set me free on the very day where His Word told me He specializes in setting people free. On removing them gently and setting them on new ground (Friday Inspiration 6.20.14). I trust Him. My God will supply all my needs.

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