This quote is comforting to me. So often it’s hard to understand why you are being attacked in life or why you are undergoing trials no other Christian seems to be able to understand. I tend to fight feelings of “why me?”, “doesn’t God understand”, and “why did God choose me for this when so and so seems to have it easy”. Ha. I guess we all have moments like that. My biggest struggle over the past three years has been my job. It is a thankless job and even that is kind of an understatement. It is a lot of work, nasty comments, accusing tongues, and just unprofessional. I’m not one to throw people under the bus so to speak but it’s really an unfortunate situation and one that I have fought a range of emotions during. There were times I felt stupid, times I felt crippled by anxiety and overwhelmed, times I felt betrayed, times I felt targeted, times I felt mocked, times I felt publicly humiliated, times I felt unappreciated, and the list goes on. It is extremely hard to bob to the top of the ocean when you feel like waves of any of these feelings are pushing you under while you are trying to catch your breath.
I am happy to say that since the New Year God has blessed me with a spirit of “I don’t care”. I don’t mean this in a defiant way, but more like these people are crazy and I don’t need to allow their negativity and toxicity to poison my self-worth or mental health any more. I know I do enough. I know I often do more than enough. And it’s okay to establish a boundary in what I will not allow to infect my life anymore.
This quote reminds me of this. So often it’s easy to wallow and feel like “why me?” in situations but this is a perspective switch. It shows you that you are enduring hardships because the Enemy sees something threatening in you. Granted Christians are all threatening to Satan in one way or another simply by having Christ living in us/having salvation but it is also that Satan (while not omnipotent) can see what God is cultivating in our hearts and lives and doesn’t want it to come to pass.
So today, right in the middle of some new accusations, I am meditating on these verses:
Romans 8:31-39 MSG “Who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us.”
Matthew 5:15-16 MSG “If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand – shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.”
I am thankful for this thankless job. It cultivates in my resilience and self-confidence in spite of the storms around me. While I may not understand it’s purpose right now I know everything God brings into my life will be worked for my good and His glory.
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