During this season of unemployment I should feel lost. Anyone would understand that. I have always been someone who is lead by my feelings which can be a bad thing when negative feelings cloud reality i.e. self-doubt, anxiety, etc. However I can honestly say that I feel total peace in the midst of what has happened. Though I have no job, there has been no moment of sadness or worry. I 100% have the peace that passes understanding and I am grateful that God is holding my heart and my hand as I leave behind what I know for where I am going.
In the song “Oceans” by Hillsong United one verse says
“You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand”
I feel that now. I have be called out in the midst of a storm. Jesus is standing on the water telling me to not be afraid. I know from the Bible (Matthew 14:22-33) that Jesus will call us into depths we may not be ready to walk on. Speaking personally–I can’t really swim. I can but not well let’s just put it that way. There’s definitely hesitancy when going past waist-deep in any body of water where my feet can’t feel the ground. And yet Jesus is the type of person who invites you to walk on top of the water and out towards Him. In order to feel His power and security you need to remain focused on Him. Don’t look around you, don’t look down at what you are doing, look straight ahead.
I pray that I continue to look ahead in this season. While people around me might understand if I were to fall apart I know who holds me together and I can walk through this fire knowing Jesus is with me.
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