John 15 MSG:
9-11 “I’ve loved you the way my Father has loved me. Make yourselves at home in my love. If you keep my commands, you’ll remain intimately at home in my love. That’s what I’ve done—kept my Father’s commands and made myself at home in his love. I’ve told you these things for a purpose: that my joy might be your joy, and your joy wholly mature.”
My goal lately is to experience more and more of God’s love for me. To feel it deeper, to experience it more often, and to use it so that I am secure no matter what. It’s hard sometimes to be in your mid to late 20’s when you are a Christian woman. Maybe that sounds like a blanket statement but I don’t know one woman in my age group that is truly 100% happy being single. Maybe that’s the world we live in or what expectations are sometimes in the church. But I think we also live in a society that romanticizes everything. I don’t always care that I am single. It’s not like this dark cloud that follows me around. But sometimes I do of course wish that I had someone. I think everyone likes a little romance.
But in the times where I am overlooked, I want to remember that when it really comes down to it, Jesus’s love, God’s love, is far superior to any human love. Granted I can’t snuggle Jesus and watch Netflix but I can feel secure and at home in God’s love. Jesus himself didn’t have a relationship. He didn’t go out on dates, or marry someone. I’m sure He might have been attracted to people–He was human after all. But ultimately He made His home in the Father’s love. And Jesus wants His joy and our joy to be completely mature.
This morning as I laid in bed not wanting to get up for the day I said “Lord–fill me with Your love as I lay here–I want to feel Your love right now before I get out of bed”. And I felt slightly dizzy, slightly warm, slightly out of it–but I think I felt His presence. I think it’s easy to want physical closeness but I want to be more in the habit of asking for spiritual closeness and grow in intimacy with My Father. I want my joy to be equal to Jesus’s joy, I want to grow in security in that love, so that there will be less and less times where I focus on my singleness or when I feel overlooked.
I am chosen. The Father sees Jesus in me and in me He is well pleased.
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