Today has been a strange day. I woke up to volunteer for church early this morning and as I was straightening my hair I was thought-praying. The two things that were on my mind: my neck and my mom’s knee.
Several years ago, I was going to the chiropractor for adjustments. At the time I was working retail and on my feet a lot which would put a lot of tension on my neck and lower back. I had found out after an X-ray that the reason I had so much tension in my neck is because most people have a natural curve and mine doesn’t. I don’t know if I was born this way or what the reason really is. So I was pray-thinking about how cool it would be if God healed that. I was also thinking about my mom’s knee which is bone-on-bone. She doesn’t have cartilage left. She often says how God could grow her some if He really wanted. I don’t know why I was thinking about these things but all I remember is that instantly I felt like I was going to pass out. To the point where everything around me became pixelated. I immediately needed to lay down.
I don’t know if I’m just getting sick, or if it was some kind of Holy Spirit thing.
On and off I’ve just felt weird about the whole thing today. I’ve mentioned why before–sometimes because of “weird Christians” you become skeptical of anything supernatural. So often you see things like that abused. There’s definitely false prophets out there and people who fake moves of the Spirit for profit and for most of my life I’ve taken that sort of thing with a grain of salt. It’s not that I don’t believe it could happen, but sometimes I wonder what the point of it is. I fully believe God can heal but some of the things you see on TV or online where people are shaking like they are being electrocuted or laughing uncontrollably freaks me out. It looks like a scary movie. It looks demonic. It doesn’t look like how God would operate because to me God is gentle.
Has anything like this ever happened to you? I can totally see where the presence of God and His power on you can be too much for your body to handle and you might feel dizzy or faint or feel a surge of energy. But I can’t really find anything in the Bible about this.
Also during a promotional video for the A21 campaign, an organization fighting sex trafficking, I got the words “my daughter is here”. Now, I don’t know if God was merely telling me, His daughters are there. His children are there..and therefore our church backing this organization is a God thing because we are setting these people free by supporting the efforts there. Or if God was saying literally…my future daughter is there. Like in the future, I will adopt a girl from there. Out of sex trafficking in a literal way. Or if God was simply saying to me and over me during church that His daughter, me, was there.
I am a huge fan of these new ways God is speaking to me, but especially with the fainting incident I want a little context and would be 100% open for someone’s personal experience or Biblical counsel on it.