Monday Inspiration 12.8.14

Isaiah 50: 1-3 ms(MSG)

  It’s your sins that put you here,
    your wrongs that got you shipped out.
So why didn’t anyone come when I knocked?
    Why didn’t anyone answer when I called?
Do you think I’ve forgotten how to help?
    Am I so decrepit that I can’t deliver?
I’m as powerful as ever,
    and can reverse what I once did:
I can dry up the sea with a word,
    turn river water into desert sand,
And leave the fish stinking in the sun,
    stranded on dry land . . .
Turn all the lights out in the sky
    and pull down the curtain.”

Today I am grateful for the things God has been doing in my life that I didn’t ask Him to do. For example, I am finally happy in my career. I used to literally cry some days having to go to my old job and felt at my wits end most days. Even Sunday nights I would tense up with anxiety knowing I had to go to work the next day. I’m not going to lie to you, there were many days I felt betrayed by God. Why am I here God? Don’t you hear me? Don’t you see me suffering? And yet looking back I wouldn’t change those times because I learned who God was during those times of despair..I grew in deeper connection and reliance on Him. I fostered a desperation that I never knew and only Jesus could fill it. Movies couldn’t fill it, friend’s advice couldn’t fill it, a nap couldn’t fill it, nothing satisfied. And when nothing satisfies, even Godly things, you learn that Jesus is the only thing and you are ravenous for His presence, His provision, His Word.

I finally have a job that I don’t hate going to. God gave it to me. For years I looked for any escape and mourned the times when I was told by employers that I had the job–only to be disappointed and have it not turn out. Until one day, I get a random message on LinkedIn from my current job. They found me. I didn’t find them. God brought it together. He blessed me. He heard my prayers. I had to wait. I had to endure. But His promises never fail. And since then I’ve been full of joy. Content even. But God being who He is, is never content. Since then I’ve gotten two raises, one small, and one larger. I’ve been put on the company phone plan so I do not have to pay my cell phone bill any longer. I’ve been complimented and encouraged by my co-workers. God doesn’t have to do these things. I didn’t pray for these things. But God is the ultimate Father because He wants to provide above and beyond for His children. I look back on times where I felt forgotten or cynical looking at God in my times of need and desperation. And I couldn’t listen to people’s breakthrough’s without wondering if that was just for them, and I couldn’t have the same things. But God is up for a challenge. He welcomes being tested because He will always prove Himself faithful.

The human thing about answered prayers is that you will always find something else that isn’t answered. For example–I have been battling a lonely heart. I really do want to meet my husband and be married and have kids and most of the time I’m met with two responses: “You’re still young” or “As long as you have Jesus you should be content and/or prepared to be single if He never answers your prayer for a husband”. In these times well-meaning Christians can discourage your heart. God cares about what you care about. He made you with the desires of your heart. Why wouldn’t he deliver? Why would you hold back from you? I share this with you because I want to always remind myself who Jesus is. Who the Father is. Who GOD is. He is not one to hold back. Just like in this verse it says:

Do you think I’ve forgotten how to help?
    Am I so decrepit that I can’t deliver?

God is not hard of heart towards you and your situation–whatever it might be. He hasn’t forgotten you. He isn’t so evil that He will not help you. Take a moment to remind your bitter heart or cynical spirit that this is who God is. Do not let circumstances or the whispers of the Devil convince you otherwise. As hard as it might be be deliberate with your thankfulness right now. And each day. Even if there is little evidence in your life of thankfulness be simple in your praises:

-Thank you God for loving me

-Thank you God that you sent Jesus to save me

-Thank you God that you always hear me

-Thank you God that your very breath and hands formed me

-Thank you God that you made Jesus a human so that He would truly know empathy for us because He had a human heart and human struggles

It doesn’t always feel like that helps, but praise eases the pain. It reorients your negative mind. It forces you to remember who God is and what He has done for you–even when you didn’t ask for it.

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