Commitment to God provokes persecution

Matthew 5 (MSG)

You’re Blessed

1-2 When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing companions. This is what he said:

“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.

“You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.

“You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are—no more, no less. That’s the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can’t be bought.

“You’re blessed when you’ve worked up a good appetite for God. He’s food and drink in the best meal you’ll ever eat.

“You’re blessed when you care. At the moment of being ‘care-full,’ you find yourselves cared for.

“You’re blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.

“You’re blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That’s when you discover who you really are, and your place in God’s family.

10 “You’re blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God’s kingdom.

11-12 “Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

I’ve been struggling with a co-worker. This person over the past two months has gotten progressively more and more antagonistic towards me. I don’t know what to do about it other than to turn the other cheek as best I can and to bring it up to my boss when it has crossed a professional line.

This person sits right next to me which means I have a front row seat to various accusations and insults.

Over the past month these are some things that I have been told:

  • You look fatter
  • You are trying to play democratic games in the office
  • You are prejudice towards this client because they are from the same country as me
  • You are “Mother Mary”
  • Your college isn’t that great
  • You need to learn how to obey what I say
  • You are siding with this dept just by delegating internal work
  • You are trying to get me in trouble

All of these things are false and after speaking about this to my family and friends, I am reminded that sometimes just being a Christian makes people hate you. Being good at your job makes people hate you. Being sure of who you are makes people hate you.

It’s disheartening to know that this person speaks the above lies. It’s not even the fact that they are lies that hurt. It’s more of, hey, I’m trying to do my job, and so are you. Why do you have to be so spiteful? Why am I so interesting to you that you need to make up reasons to try to start an argument with me?

I don’t post this for attention. I’m posting this as a reminder, that sometimes we forget that this is the world we live in. As Christians you are looked at like dirt, like a clown, like a total fool. Sometimes even as a women you can be looked at as if you are drama, or not truthful. I’ve experienced all of these things and they have brought a heaviness to my heart some days. I listen to an entire worship CD every day on my way to work. I meditate and pray on my commute. I cling to God because my patience is thin for these attacks. I trust God.

But it can also be exhausting to continue to fortify yourself in the midst. Or to hear the buzzing of these “bees” around you. Sometimes its not the words themselves, its just the irritation of being stung over and over.

If you are experiencing something like this in your work or at home fill in your name below and be of good cheer. I am with you. God is with you.


Not only that—Jessica is blessed every time people put her down or throw her out or speak lies about her to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. Jessica can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you, Jessica are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

For you:

Not only that—____ is blessed every time people put ___ down or throw ___ out or speak lies about ___ to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. ___ can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that ___ are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

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I got my planner this year, 2015. And I love it. It inspires you to dream , plan, and see the goals God has for you this year.

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Be blessed,


Song of Today – Hosanna by Hillsong

Today I’m visualizing the year I want to see for myself, my family, my church, and the world in general. This part gets me every time:

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Just imagine what it would feel like to see this happen. It reminds me of the feeling of hot water in the shower, covering my skin. A tight hug, and many more things. I feel joy that no matter what I face I can see his love and mercy and because of that the people of the world can sing.

Jesscbnyc Recommends: Abide app


Sometimes it can be hard to get people to pray for you. I mean we live in a time where I’m sure people mean well but they can be busy. I stumbled upon this app because of a Bible App reading plan and it has been a blessing to my life.

Basically you can search by topic and a 1 – 3 min prayer can be listened to. It helps ground my sometimes overwhelmed defeated mind and heart and helps me feel like someone is praying for me.

The prayer I listened to during lunch: from “Blessing of Well Being”:

“You are mine. I am commited to your well-being. There is a plan. You will not miss it”.

Feel free to write your experiences in the comments.

Prayer Request: Darkness

I consider myself to be pretty street smart and there’s not a whole lot that surprises me. However working with all men in the tech field..sometimes they are privy to some internet happenings that I wouldn’t be and I hear information I’d rather not know.

***Don’t continue reading if you don’t want to be disturbed. I mainly present this knowledge because I’m looking for prayer on this situation as a whole. ***

Anyway. It was brought to my attention that there is some sort of gross underworld on the internet that I was just made aware of today called DarkWeb which is a part of the DeepWeb. Basically it’s content that isn’t searchable and therefore people can do all sorts of illegal or disturbing things on there without it being noticed or punished. Content is ranging from illegally acquiring drugs to the more stomach turning situations of videos or streaming content where people can commit cruel often torturous acts to women and animals. It can even be live feeds where people watching can tell you what to do to said person or animal.

I’m not going into more detail than that. Honestly, I’m currently still weak stomached over it and just reading titles of some of these things literally drove me to a mini panic attack today at work. I’m very sensitive to things like that and can’t even watch violent or scary movies.

Honestly, it’s pretty scary to think this exists on the internet and in the world. There are so many horrible things happening in the world as it is and I don’t post this to ruin anyone’s day or peace. But I do feel very strongly that this is something to keep mindful and prayerful of. Currently I am feeling comforted that our God has overcome the things of the world but I also feel pretty grossed out today.

Scripture I prayed today. Please join me.

John 1:1-5 (MSG)

The Life-Light

1-2 The Word was first,
the Word present to God,
    God present to the Word.
The Word was God,
    in readiness for God from day one.

3-5 Everything was created through him;
    nothing—not one thing!—
    came into being without him.
What came into existence was Life,
    and the Life was Light to live by.
The Life-Light blazed out of the darkness;
    the darkness couldn’t put it out.

John 16:33  (MSG)

31-33 Jesus answered them, “Do you finally believe? In fact, you’re about to make a run for it—saving your own skins and abandoning me. But I’m not abandoned. The Father is with me. I’ve told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.”

Psalm 10 (MSG)

14 But you know all about it—
    the contempt, the abuse.
I dare to believe that the luckless
    will get lucky someday in you.
You won’t let them down:
    orphans won’t be orphans forever.

15-16 Break the wicked right arms,
    break all the evil left arms.
Search and destroy
    every sign of crime.
God’s grace and order wins;
    godlessness loses.

17-18 The victim’s faint pulse picks up;
    the hearts of the hopeless pump red blood
    as you put your ear to their lips.
Orphans get parents,
    the homeless get homes.
The reign of terror is over,
    the rule of the gang lords is ended.