12:00 pm Prayer: 2/15/16

Hi Jesus,

Thank you for delivering me from a weekend funeral. Thank you that you used me to comfort my extended family.

I lift up my father and my ex to you in this moment.

God I pray that in this moment you will swell their hearts. That unexpectedly they will turn their attention to you and talk to you. It might not feel like a prayer but it will cause a layer of their heart to fall down and take a small step towards you.

God they were yours before they were their parent’s, their friend’s or mine.

Show them that a life is only worth living if it as you in it.

Amen.

12:00 pm Prayer: 2/9/16

I fell off the wagon for a few days but here we go.

 

Jesus I pray for the souls of my father and ex. You know how to love them better than any human could. I read a great prayer from Britt Nilsson that said:

If I feel distant from You, I feel distant from myself and I feel so needy toward Jeremy. That’s not his burden. He treats me so well. You treat me so well. I just want to be more intentional about being in relationship with You. I want to prioritize our connection, and actually believe that I don’t NEED or OWE anything to Jeremy above You. I need to realize that he is also going to be ok. I need to realize that I really don’t want him to be needy toward me either, as validating as that may feel. I want us to truly live outside of fear and step into peace. I want the times I say I love him as he is to SINK in! I feel like the other night when he read his lists to me that began to happen. But, Father, just like I cant rush his process of receiving love, he cant rush mine. We have to learn to accept our value from YOU before anything can move deeper in that area. The sense of wellness and acceptable-ness and value has to come from You, outside of our relationship to each other, or we will never be able to fully feel safe in our connection. We will feel needy and suspicious and doubtful and that will make us afraid to be apart.

God it was never your intention that we fill the God void in people’s hearts with ourselves. No amount of human love will satisfy the hearts of your children. It is not about seeking this love from another person and then being disappointed. It’s about seeking your love and perfection and being satisfied. Being satisfied enough not to expect that from other people. We’re human. We can’t do it.

Help heal their hearts from past loves or hurts. Help them look only to you and move forward in a health way with you at their right hand. Amen.

 

12:00 pm Prayer: 2/3/16

I lift up my dad and ex to you today Jesus. Only you can change a heart. Only you can pursue someone relentlessly.

Draw these men closer to you. Fill them with hope and desire for a life with you centered in it.

May all of their small steps lead in your direction. Make their paths straight.

 

Amen.

12:00 pm Prayer: 2/2/16

Jesus, I lift up my ex and my dad to you. They both need to return to you. I know both of them believed in you at one time, or God in general, but they need your daily presence and power in their lives.

I pray that you will overwhelm their dreams with visions of you. I pray that you will flood their hearts with your love and affection for them. I pray that they will become so hungry and thirsty for you that they reach out to friends, neighbors, co-workers, or me, to talk about you. To ask questions. To request prayer. To ask for a book or Bible that will spark a fire in their life that will never burn out. I pray that you will bless them in their work. Bless them in their lives. Bless them in their journey towards you.

May they never be the same because of the prayers I pray on their behalf.

Collect your sons Jesus.

Amen.

Prayer

Hey guys,

In case you haven’t been following my first blog post for Horacio Printing was about my word for the year “Prayer”.

Read about it here.

Since the beginning of the year I have set my phone alarm for 12 Noon every day to pray for my ex’s and father’s salvation.

I think I need more accountability since sometimes I feel like it’s too short so I want to start posting them here. That way in times where I feel like I don’t know what to say I can post or read what I’ve done here.

Hope you enjoy!