Transitions

Have you ever felt like something was on its way? It feels like a combination of excitement and almost fear? Or like you are forgetting something that you wrote down on your calendar but have this funny feeling? I’ve been feeling like something is on the horizon for a little while now.

I’ve come to recognize this as a transition.

The last official time I remember this started was April 27th of this year.

For context, ever since I began volunteering at my church, I stayed planted on the same team. I grew in that team and became a leader of that team. It was something that helped me find community and purpose in church instead of just going to services and leaving. I will always be grateful for being able to create home for people coming to church and for the whole experience.

After doing this for a number of years, there were several months at the end where I felt really burned out in that capacity. I’ll even admit in darker times felt very alone and bitter serving. But there was this feeling of responsibility and obligation. I didn’t want to give up. I didn’t want to lose my “security” and the place I thought I found to contribute something to the church. To be a good servant for God. And yet, I knew something was changing. And I was scared that it might be me.

I worried that people would be disappointed in me, I worried that no one would care what I did any more because I wasn’t actively volunteering, I worried that I would lose my purpose and drift through Sundays. There were a lot of feelings I had. And yet, officially on April 27th I cut my rope.

It wasn’t this heroic thing. It was more like, God, I don’t feel like I have it in me to continue in this capacity any more. I’m tired. I don’t feel valued. I feel alone. And I wonder if these are just feelings from burnout or if you are changing my heart because I’ve been comfortable here, and it’s time to move on.

And I want to encourage you, in church, in your job, at school, in your relationships, whatever it might be. To realize that sometimes, comfortable isn’t a good thing. It’s ok to change. I’m not saying cut out everyone in your life and be selfish and do your own thing. But I’m saying sometimes, things are meant to be for a season. And God wants you to keep growing.

I find myself relating to Isaiah 42:16 ESV “And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them. I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground. These are the things I do, and I do not forsake them.”

So here I am, embarking on some new adventures, pushing deeper into some other interests I have in church that surround women and aspects of social justice because I think God has prepared my heart for these things.

I am challenged to look up some stories again in the Bible for accounts where God took people out of their comfort zone because He wanted them to accomplish something else. Please comment below if anything comes to mind!

 

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Be Free

I found this organization after reading a Buzzfeed article. I think it’s a wonderful idea. So often when it comes to New Year’s, we become consumed with what we can do personally to improve our own lives. However, I want to continue to find creative ways to help people. This could be as simple as deciding to buy jewelry or a handbag from this company, sponsoring a child, or donating to a local cause. Mirriam-Webster defines a “resolution” as:

res·o·lu·tion

noun \ˌre-zə-ˈlü-shən\

: the act of finding an answer or solution to a conflict, problem, etc. : the act of resolving something

: an answer or solution to something

Since when did a New Year’s resolution become something as shallow as working out more, traveling, treat yourself more, or any of these somewhat trivial things? I encourage us all to become people who challenge ourselves with each new year. What are we doing to improve as Christ-followers? What are we doing to make an impact? What are we doing to improve the lives of others? What are we doing that has lasting success and not just temporary satisfaction?

I think these are worthy challenges and worthy New Year’s resolutions. Challenge yourself to do something more this year…I plan to.

Happy New Year.

Works-in-Progress

I had a situation from my past come up yesterday. While I dealt with it better than I would have previously there were still some missteps that I immediately confided in God about. Unlike in the past where I would allow the Enemy to torment me for not doing things a certain way–I gave it to God and weighed the victories and losses. Today’s blog post comes from the current state of my heart and I hope it encourages you.

It’s still hard for me to really fathom God’s love. I think this is the case for all Christians if you’re really and truly honest enough with yourself. We know our pasts, our current struggles, our bad thoughts, our temptations, whatever they might be. And because we are humans and somewhat obsessed with comparison, we can often wonder why God even bothers with us. I want so badly to be pleasing to God, but I think this can often manifest in unrealistic expectations we place on ourselves or what we might have grown up hearing in church. We are not Jesus. Just because we’re Christians and covered by His blood and adopted into eternal salvation, doesn’t mean we are going to make the cut all the time. We are a living oxymoron. We are still human, broken-vessels and in essence Jesus’s blood spilled on the cross simultaneously poured into our lives to cover our brokenness and also made it possible for us to be formed into a new vessel. I think the church for a long time has failed to really explain how this works. Unfortunately, in my opinion, the church expects you to poof into a brand new creation. Salvation isn’t a microwave. A lot of the time it’s a slow-cooker. Sure you can be 100% saved but that doesn’t mean that doesn’t take a life-time to walk out.

I remember being so mad one time a year or so ago when I watched a televangelist scolding a man who asked for prayer because though a Christian who asked Jesus into His heart, he still struggled with alcohol. I think it’s a sad thing when instead of reminding people that we are all carrying our crosses daily, and that we will all fall short of perfection until we reach Heaven, that we often become the mouthpiece of the Devil. Harsh? But true. The Enemy is the King of guilt and shame. I’m not saying wrongdoings aren’t wrongdoings but we are all stumbling through life. We are covered in grace on one hand but we are like infants learning how to walk at the same time. Luckily God is merciful and instead of becoming fed up with humanity as we read so many times in the Old Testament–He brought the final act of generosity which was to send His son. To teach grace and forgiveness. To tenderly guide us, to show us the way, to show that while we fall short, He never will. A simple Google search showed me this passage which I thought was very well said:

In Colossians: 3:12-13


, God instructs us on how to deal with each other as he deals with us: “Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another…” Stan did that for me. I became one of the best cutters the company ever had. There was nothing I would not do for my boss. I continued to work for him until they closed the plant. I was one of the last employees out of 200 to be laid off when the plant closed several years later.

God deals with you and me the same way Stan dealt with me. God invests a lot of time in us and is not ready to wipe us out because of our mistakes. Instead, He encourages us not to quit.

So the next time you or someone you know makes a mistake, be gentle, kind and encouraging. Look for ways to solve the problem and don’t quit! Treat others the way you would want to be treated if you were the one who goofed. Look beyond the mistakes in yourself and in others and see the potential. We will all say the words, “Oops, I made a mistake,” many times before we reach our full potential. But keep trying. Keep learning. Keep forgiving. We can all be in God’s Kingdom some day in spite of our mistakes. [http://www.ucg.org/christian-living/oops-i-made-mistake/]

I think that’s beautiful. In no way am I saying deliberately take advantage of God’s grace and do whatever you want, but I think we need to stop listening to the voice of the Devil and even the condemnation heaped on us by other Christians and remember that God’s voice is the only one that matters. God is not shocked by our mistakes. He is not stomping His feet and throwing tantrums in Heaven. Luckily He knows who we are growing to be, and since He exists outside of time, He does not grow weary of the journey we are on to get there.

God I thank you for Jesus. I thank you for your love and kindness towards me when I know I do not deserve it. In the grand scheme of things I am not special. I am not that great and yet you still remind me that You created me on purpose. I am not a disappointment to You and I am not an accident that You made in Heaven. God, help me to see my mistakes in life as bumps in the road. I can trip but I do not have to fall and never get up. Thank you God that You see me in my final stage and therefore nothing I have done, am doing, or will do in the future will ever take that fulfillment away from me. Because of Jesus I am sealed. Because of my humanity I will fall short. Teach me to fail less but also help me to forgive myself more. We are all a beautiful mess made perfect by You. Amen.

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ANOMALY

“We are infinite. Made for one another. Made for love. We are undone by our own humanity. By moments of nearness. But we break with distance when we are alone. It gets so dark we almost wish it was never light. And then in one moment, one precious moment, a light shines in the darkness.”

I have been waiting for this film since it was announced as a project in 2013. Two talented members of Hillsong church Dan DiFelice and Salomon Ligthelm announced their collaboration on Kickstarter. [ https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/639662626/a-n-o-m-a-l-y ]

I just watched the film which has a running time of 37:54 and loved it from start to finish. It’s a different way of re-telling the classic Biblical account of the birth of Christ. There aren’t too many differences outside of the time being set in the 1960s, and instead of the Star of Bethlehem it’s the Bayt Lahm comet which will signify the arrival of the baby Jesus. We also don’t have three wise men coming to see the child and present him with gifts, and the birth of Jesus takes place in a hospital where the mother is alone as opposed to a stable alongside Joseph.

None of these creative tweaks bothered me because everything critical to the story remained the same. Oliver, Anomaly’s Joseph, is shocked to find out that Haylee, Anomaly‘s Mary, is pregnant when they have not yet been intimate. Oliver’s family is unhappy with Haylee even before we find out that she’s pregnant and it is assumed in the film that they have a break-up of some kind before Oliver launches into space to fulfill President Kennedy’s challenge to achieve the longest continuous space flight to date. As an astronaut there is definitely an obstacle to his physical ability to be present during the birth and also an emotional obstacle because he believes that Haylee has cheated on him in order to have become pregnant. I think it was a smart choice and definitely a creative way to navigate how the Biblical Joseph would have felt. In Matthew 1 (MSG) it says:

20-23 While he was trying to figure a way out, he had a dream. God’s angel spoke in the dream: “Joseph, son of David, don’t hesitate to get married. Mary’s pregnancy is Spirit-conceived. God’s Holy Spirit has made her pregnant. She will bring a son to birth, and when she does, you, Joseph, will name him Jesus—‘God saves’—because he will save his people from their sins.” This would bring the prophet’s embryonic sermon to full term:

Watch for this—a virgin will get pregnant and bear a son;
They will name him Immanuel (Hebrew for “God is with us”).

Joseph would have been torn back in that time. Even in the 1960s I’m sure many people would have still looked down upon an unwed mother. So imagine what his inner turmoil would have been like. In the film Oliver literally has a “way out” and can disappear into space–as far as you can get from Earth. However, the God of the Universe still has access to him no matter the distance. We get the idea of this through the blast of light from the comet and the rattling of the spacecraft while Oliver is in space.

As I was writing this, it also occurred to me that there was the idea of three wise men through the NASA analysts instead of the Biblical magi or astrologers. These are very smart men and you can see from the beginning of the film that they are all shocked by this comet. It doesn’t make sense to them.

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Years ago a scientist named Noel Fitz had predicted the Bayt Lahm comet and it is assumed that he was not taken seriously. I think in a way the character of Noel fills in the historical detail needed to explain the birth of Jesus and I like the idea I came up with of him being a physical representation of Biblical prophesy.

I also liked the name of the comet “Bayt Lahm” which I Googled and found to be very significant:

Bayt Lahm – a small town near Jerusalem on the West Bank of the Jordan River; early home of David and regarded as the place where Jesus was born – http://www.thefreedictionary.com/Bayt+Lahm

I’m curious to see what you all think of the film or if you picked up on any symbolism or cool aspects that I may have missed.

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday Inspiration 12.16.14

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It’s been a crazy couple of weeks hasn’t it? Between the hostage situation in Sydney, Australia, the verdicts in the Eric Garner and Michael Brown cases, and the school shooting in Pakistan the world has a lot of reasons to lose hope. Today I came across this quote on someone’s Instagram and decided to use just a simple PicMonkey.com font to design for today’s blog post.

It was only ten words but it took my breath away. I thought it was such a simple and beautiful concept because it’s easy to feel defeated. It’s human to mourn death. It’s easy to feel scared about the future and to wonder what is wrong with the world today. But the important thing about this idea is that it causes us to see beyond the current horrors. Fields full of seeds can look dead before they sprout crops. And situations, people, and places can seem irrevocably damaged or evil but God is still at work here on Earth.

In 1 Peter 1:23 it says:

“For you have been born again not of seed which is perishable but imperishable, that is, through the living and enduring word of God.”

In Mark 4 it says:

26-29 Then Jesus said, “God’s kingdom is like seed thrown on a field by a man who then goes to bed and forgets about it. The seed sprouts and grows—he has no idea how it happens. The earth does it all without his help: first a green stem of grass, then a bud, then the ripened grain. When the grain is fully formed, he reaps—harvest time!

In other words those of us who have accepted Jesus as Savior are full of God seed. We are not defined by time or death but are new creations who will live forever in community with our God. For those who are still committing evil here on Earth or living under the blindness of their sin, I try to remind myself that Jesus’s heart on the cross, though broken by what man has done, still had enough sympathy for us to say “Father forgive them, they do not know what they do”. I’m not saying the world events are right. I’m not saying they aren’t a big deal. They are. Any death is devastating. Any evil hurts to hear about. But ultimately I don’t want to live in fear or feel like the world has somehow come off its rotation and we’re all spiraling out of control. God is still on the throne, He is not hard-hearted towards the conditions on Earth. Instead, miraculously, He holds back for the sake of those who have yet to come to salvation. This is scandalous to us, but if we believe, truly that God is all-loving but also all-fair, we have to understand that while things look like they are dying all around us that God is still at work. Seeds of hope and life are still being planted no matter what the Enemy or evil-doers think they are destroying. I know that God wins at the end of all of this. Let that be our hope.

Thursday Inspiration 12.11.14

Isaiah 55:8-11 (MSG)

“I don’t think the way you think.
The way you work isn’t the way I work.”
God’s Decree.
“For as the sky soars high above earth,
so the way I work surpasses the way you work,
and the way I think is beyond the way you think.
Just as rain and snow descend from the skies
and don’t go back until they’ve watered the earth,
Doing their work of making things grow and blossom,
producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry,
So will the words that come out of my mouth
not come back empty-handed.
They’ll do the work I sent them to do,
they’ll complete the assignment I gave them.

I’m not much for gardening. Any time I’ve had house plants or flowers they have died. Maybe it’s just bad luck but I’m glad that when God gardens within our lives He doesn’t have my “brown” thumb. I have been saving this verse in my drafts for quite some time and today felt like the right day. I don’t feel like I’m currently being pruned and if I am I am not painfully aware of it as I have been in the past. But I still think His point of view on the situation of pruning and gardening is beautiful and encouraging whether you are going through a season of pruning or flourishing.

God reminds is in Isaiah as usual that our ways are not His ways. Our thoughts are lower than His thoughts. In other words–Father knows best. I absolutely LOVE the imagery and comparison the Message Bible draws when comparing the rain to God’s words. The rain will not stop until the ground is saturated, until it is done being dry and thirsty, until what needs to grow has grown. How cool is that when we think of God’s word? God is the creator–He has spoken all creation into being. He has spoken light into darkness in Genesis and has orchestrated all humanity. This same God wants His words to go out to you and to return with life and they will never return void. Even His words are subject to His will. It’s not like He says things without intention and without thinking. It’s not like He speaks something into being and regrets it. No, God’s words will do the work He sent them to do just like the rain. And what does the rain do? It does “their work of making things grow and blossom, producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry”. When you think about this in a more practical way God’s words will make dead things come to life in your world, in your heart, in your situation. His words want to make things blossom. One of Merriam-Webster’s definitions of blossom is in the intransitive form of the verb meaning:

a :  to come into one’s own :  develop <a blossoming talent>

b :  to become evident

c :  to make an appearance

So God wants His words to become evident, to make an appearance/to come to fruition/to be tangible. His words help the farmers to plant seeds kind of like how Christians plant seeds and lead people to be curious about God, about their own value in the world, and about their neediness for the Savior as well as the needs around them. So God is arming us Christians with seeds and also feeding those who are hungry–who haven’t found Him, He is also sending out His word and His farmers to feed them. To meet them in their need. I love that!

I also really enjoyed reading this quote online:

 Excerpt from Heaven is in this House . Written by Bobbie Houston

Imagine a place so irresistible that people can’t wait to get there. Imagine a place so functional that no one ever wants to leave. Imagine a place where the atmosphere causes humanity to flourish. Imagine a place designed for no other reason than to connect you with a world beyond your wildest dreams. Such a place exists and has existed within the heart of God since before all time. It’s the church.

How beautiful. Don’t you want to be in this place? You don’t want to leave, no one wants to leave. More and more people hear about this place and they can’t wait to get there because they know the atmosphere is so alive and blossoming that you can’t help but flourish and help others to flourish. This is the Church. Not just the building, but the network of Christians. The local and the global church. The family of Christ.

I hope two things for you today:

1. That no matter your season: pruning or flourishing that you know God’s word for you will not return void. If the God who spoke you into being and knows you by name says it–it will come to be no matter the timeline.

2. If you are in a Church that you see it as more than just something you attend on a Sunday or at mid-week gatherings. That you never underestimate the power in community and the support and encouragement that it brings. If you haven’t found a church that you like, that you prioritize that search and get planted somewhere. If God is planting seeds and helping things grow but you have no roots–you’re going to miss the harvest.

I love what God is doing and am exicted for what He has yet to do not only in my life but in yours as well. His words will always result in action. God Bless.

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Wednesday Inspiration 12.10.14

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Tonight I had my company holiday party. People brought their small children, wives, etc and it felt more like family than work. I’m truly endlessly joyfully grateful for this job. So many times I felt discouraged and depressed at my last job. I felt beaten down and often felt like my very worth was in question. I was torn down verbally each and every day. I felt abused literally at work. It was pure torture. Words cannot express this. I felt like I was truly at my wits end. Like I couldn’t endure smother day. I needed out. And weeks and months and years would pass. And you know what?, this job is proof that God is faithful. He brings the best. He knows what is ultimately for our good and the very greatest has yet to come. I find myself smiling as I write this. Smiling as I lay in bed getting ready to fall asleep. Trust me when I say that God is faithful. I’ve seen the darkness and I’m finally experiencing the light. You’re not even ready for the Ephesians 3:20 miracle that He’s sending your way. Praise God!

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Monday Inspiration 12.8.14

Isaiah 50: 1-3 ms(MSG)

  It’s your sins that put you here,
    your wrongs that got you shipped out.
So why didn’t anyone come when I knocked?
    Why didn’t anyone answer when I called?
Do you think I’ve forgotten how to help?
    Am I so decrepit that I can’t deliver?
I’m as powerful as ever,
    and can reverse what I once did:
I can dry up the sea with a word,
    turn river water into desert sand,
And leave the fish stinking in the sun,
    stranded on dry land . . .
Turn all the lights out in the sky
    and pull down the curtain.”

Today I am grateful for the things God has been doing in my life that I didn’t ask Him to do. For example, I am finally happy in my career. I used to literally cry some days having to go to my old job and felt at my wits end most days. Even Sunday nights I would tense up with anxiety knowing I had to go to work the next day. I’m not going to lie to you, there were many days I felt betrayed by God. Why am I here God? Don’t you hear me? Don’t you see me suffering? And yet looking back I wouldn’t change those times because I learned who God was during those times of despair..I grew in deeper connection and reliance on Him. I fostered a desperation that I never knew and only Jesus could fill it. Movies couldn’t fill it, friend’s advice couldn’t fill it, a nap couldn’t fill it, nothing satisfied. And when nothing satisfies, even Godly things, you learn that Jesus is the only thing and you are ravenous for His presence, His provision, His Word.

I finally have a job that I don’t hate going to. God gave it to me. For years I looked for any escape and mourned the times when I was told by employers that I had the job–only to be disappointed and have it not turn out. Until one day, I get a random message on LinkedIn from my current job. They found me. I didn’t find them. God brought it together. He blessed me. He heard my prayers. I had to wait. I had to endure. But His promises never fail. And since then I’ve been full of joy. Content even. But God being who He is, is never content. Since then I’ve gotten two raises, one small, and one larger. I’ve been put on the company phone plan so I do not have to pay my cell phone bill any longer. I’ve been complimented and encouraged by my co-workers. God doesn’t have to do these things. I didn’t pray for these things. But God is the ultimate Father because He wants to provide above and beyond for His children. I look back on times where I felt forgotten or cynical looking at God in my times of need and desperation. And I couldn’t listen to people’s breakthrough’s without wondering if that was just for them, and I couldn’t have the same things. But God is up for a challenge. He welcomes being tested because He will always prove Himself faithful.

The human thing about answered prayers is that you will always find something else that isn’t answered. For example–I have been battling a lonely heart. I really do want to meet my husband and be married and have kids and most of the time I’m met with two responses: “You’re still young” or “As long as you have Jesus you should be content and/or prepared to be single if He never answers your prayer for a husband”. In these times well-meaning Christians can discourage your heart. God cares about what you care about. He made you with the desires of your heart. Why wouldn’t he deliver? Why would you hold back from you? I share this with you because I want to always remind myself who Jesus is. Who the Father is. Who GOD is. He is not one to hold back. Just like in this verse it says:

Do you think I’ve forgotten how to help?
    Am I so decrepit that I can’t deliver?

God is not hard of heart towards you and your situation–whatever it might be. He hasn’t forgotten you. He isn’t so evil that He will not help you. Take a moment to remind your bitter heart or cynical spirit that this is who God is. Do not let circumstances or the whispers of the Devil convince you otherwise. As hard as it might be be deliberate with your thankfulness right now. And each day. Even if there is little evidence in your life of thankfulness be simple in your praises:

-Thank you God for loving me

-Thank you God that you sent Jesus to save me

-Thank you God that you always hear me

-Thank you God that your very breath and hands formed me

-Thank you God that you made Jesus a human so that He would truly know empathy for us because He had a human heart and human struggles

It doesn’t always feel like that helps, but praise eases the pain. It reorients your negative mind. It forces you to remember who God is and what He has done for you–even when you didn’t ask for it.

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Have courage and be kind.

“I have to tell you a secret that will see you through all the trials that life has to offer: have courage and be kind.”

I saw this movie trailer today and it brought me unexpected encouragement. For those of you who keep up with my happenings on this blog you know that I was approached about a potential new job. I was filled with a combination of curiosity and guilt. Curiosity because it is a fantastic company with lots of potential to figure out what I really want to do with my career and guilty because I feel very loyal to my current employer and genuinely love all the people I work with.

Well all of this resolved yesterday when I received a call from the potential new employer and they offered me a substantial raise. I had prayed to God, God I only want this job if it is from you. You brought me to my current job and I love it here, but if my time is up–albeit sooner than I ever thought–make it clear to me. I want them to either choose someone else or offer me a significant raise. And much to my surprise they offered me the latter.

I still have to break the news to my boss during our weekly meetings together tomorrow and I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t very nervous to disappoint him but ultimately I believe this opportunity is too good to pass up and more importantly I believe it is from God. I didn’t look for it. It came to me. In the same way that this current job came to me. God’s ways are not mine, and part of being a Christian is learning to go when He says go, and being okay with being uncomfortable.

I actually found another WordPress Blogger who feels the same way:

“Those times when you feel so led and so scared at the same time….THOSE are the opportunities God wants you to pursue and not because you can handle them alone, but because you can handle them with Him.  And when you choose to obey God and go down those scary, unknown paths….it is then that He knows how much you truly trust Him” – http://michelletraudt.wordpress.com/tag/getting-uncomfortable/

In other words some people love singing the song “Oceans” by Hillsong but not all of them are comfortable in the deep end. I definitely don’t like it..figuratively and literally. But Jesus calls us out on the water into uncomfortable terrain:

Matthew 14 (MSG):

24-26 Meanwhile, the boat was far out to sea when the wind came up against them and they were battered by the waves. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. They were scared out of their wits. “A ghost!” they said, crying out in terror.

27 But Jesus was quick to comfort them. “Courage, it’s me. Don’t be afraid.”

28 Peter, suddenly bold, said, “Master, if it’s really you, call me to come to you on the water.”

29-30 He said, “Come ahead.”

When He calls us out we can take courage in knowing it is Him calling out to us, and therefore we don’t need to be anxious in where we walk out to. If He called us we can go.

I also like Isaiah 51 (MSG) which begins:

1-3 “Listen to me, all you who are serious about right living
    and committed to seeking God.
Ponder the rock from which you were cut,
    the quarry from which you were dug.
Yes, ponder Abraham, your father,
    and Sarah, who bore you.
Think of it! One solitary man when I called him,
    but once I blessed him, he multiplied.
Likewise I, God, will comfort Zion,
    comfort all her mounds of ruins.
I’ll transform her dead ground into Eden,
    her moonscape into the garden of God,
A place filled with exuberance and laughter,
    thankful voices and melodic songs.

in other words I am one solitary woman. But God is calling me and blessing me and multiplying me. I used to loathe going to work before this current job. I have spent many days over the past five months here being transformed. I was in some ways beaten down and discouraged because of the verbal abuse and stress from my last job that in comparison this place was a cakewalk. It restored me to better health. And honestly, I would have been content to stay here for a long time, I was happy to no longer have to look for another job. To rest. But God is never done. He’s not content to leave us in any one condition for too long. My God, the God of the Universe and everything and everyone, He wants to transform everything including me. He wants to make what I see as dead into an Eden..into a paradise. He wants every place to be filled with “exuberance and laughter, thankful voices and melodic songs”. 

While Disney gets it right to an extent by turning what is “dead” or poor or unnoticeable in Cinderella is what God already authored in my life and has been writing into every human heart since the beginning of time. Through taunts and tears and discouragement in my past my Father finally brought me to a green pasture. And being who he is, He’s not content to leave me there. He wants to bring me to the “castle” not because I need Him to, not because I asked Him to, but because He has the power and desire to.