Jesscbnyc Announcement

Hey guys,

I’ve been keeping a secret since November and now it’s official! I will be contributing content for Horacio Printing !!!

For those of you who might now know, Horacio Printing makes awesome planners that help you organize your life. Sometimes life can deteriorate your plans and dreams and this planner is crucial to make sure that you are cultivating the calling and dreams in your life.

The good news is I will be blogging here and there so nothing is changing. Feel free to subscribe or keep an eye on on the Horacio Blog here.

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Also the planner has been such a huge success that the 2016 version has already sold out!!! But I have some news. There will be a limited re-release of planners for those who missed out on the first run.

Simply go to this link and enter the promo code “preorder” for a 20% off savings!

xoxo,

Jess

Work Musing

Sometimes I think about the doubts that I have regarding my future husband. It can be hard when 1. you’ve had damaging experiences and 2. when no one who you feel like you’d get along with is actually interested in you (womp womp).

However, I mentioned to my CEO a couple weeks ago about wanting a cabinet for my filled up notebooks and files and he found a picture of one that he would like to get for me. He e-mailed me today to make sure that I liked it and since I’m never really picky when it comes to work stuff like that I wrote that yes it looks good thank you.

He called me after I replied and said “I just want to make sure I get it right and it’s useful for you.”

It’s in those moments that I remind myself how blessed I feel to have such a kind, caring, smart, etc etc boss to work for. It is literally shocking to me the longer that I’m at my company how great he is, and how I’m really honored to be working closely with him in my position. If you’ve ever worked at a thankless job you know that you can have a prestigious role but a horrible boss and it ruins the whole thing.

At times like that I remind myself that if God can give me a great boss and a great job when I didn’t think it was possible, He can definitely do that again. I’ve doubted before but I am living in the delivered promise. If I doubt now I can be sure He will deliver again.

Wednesday Inspiration 12.10.14

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Tonight I had my company holiday party. People brought their small children, wives, etc and it felt more like family than work. I’m truly endlessly joyfully grateful for this job. So many times I felt discouraged and depressed at my last job. I felt beaten down and often felt like my very worth was in question. I was torn down verbally each and every day. I felt abused literally at work. It was pure torture. Words cannot express this. I felt like I was truly at my wits end. Like I couldn’t endure smother day. I needed out. And weeks and months and years would pass. And you know what?, this job is proof that God is faithful. He brings the best. He knows what is ultimately for our good and the very greatest has yet to come. I find myself smiling as I write this. Smiling as I lay in bed getting ready to fall asleep. Trust me when I say that God is faithful. I’ve seen the darkness and I’m finally experiencing the light. You’re not even ready for the Ephesians 3:20 miracle that He’s sending your way. Praise God!

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http://tumblr.hannahrosebeasley.com

Tuesday Inspiration 11.25.14

I have never felt so torn in my professional life. Last I wrote here on the blog I was going to take a leap of faith and accept a new job opportunity. However I was taken on an all new journey when I went to my boss to give my two-weeks notice and he matched the offer I was being given from the other company and promised me a promotion.

Here is the update I posted on my personal social media page earlier today:

Ultimately after Sunday’s sermon I have chosen to trust God and not rely on my own “vision” or what the world or my peers might think is the obvious choice. The sermon discussed two blind men in the Bible (Matthew 20) and how they called out to Jesus. They couldn’t see it was Him but they knew it was Him. And Jesus asked them “What do you want me to do for you?” and when they asked for sight He gave it to them. In much of the same way I feel like I am two people. I’m the employee at [Current Company] and the prospective employee of a corporate giant, [Prospective Company]. I don’t know which was better and could weigh the pros of both. I toiled a lot over this. I felt ashamed for signing an offer and possibly changing my mind. I felt worried about leaving a place I love for the unknown. I went back and forth and back and forth. And ultimately decided that I want to be the kind of person that makes the unpopular choice. That goes for the underdog. That goes with my heart and you all know how much I love the people I work with now. But of course part of you feels foolish at the same time for turning down a huge, rich, corporation. I was ready to make my decision and found out the Hiring Manager in HR was out of the office today. Rather than waste any more time, although it was not ideal, I decided to leave him a voice-mail and a corresponding e-mail. I pray that this ends any anxiety now that I’ve made a choice. Here is what I wrote and thank you all for your prayers and listening to my worries about this whole situation:

“I tried to call your office line in the hopes that you had an OOO number to reach you but unfortunately I think you are probably on your way somewhere for Thanksgiving.

I just wanted to keep you up to speed in the decision making process after my conversation with the CEO here at [Current Company]–which as you may recall—was when I called you on Friday. I’ve spent the past four days truly grueling over the conversation with him and my decision to accept the position at [Prospective Company] and feeling torn between the two. To be completely honest as I mentioned on Friday it was a very hard conversation to have with my CEO and I was 100% prepared to give my two-weeks notice and start with [Prospective Company]. The conversation ended up developing into one I was not expecting and we spent over two hours in his office discussing why he needed me to stay and his plans for me to better the company as a whole..

I just want to take the time from the bottom of my heart to thank you so much for offering me the position of [Prospective Position] at [Prospective Company]. It has been an absolute pleasure speaking with you, and [names withheld] and learning more about your company. It was undoubtedly an easy decision at the time to accept such a wonderful opportunity.

Unfortunately, after giving a great deal of thought to this over the weekend, I have decided that it is in my long-term best interest, as well as [Current Company]’s, to turn down your gracious job offer. I have recently decided to remain here at [Current Company] because I believe the CEO’s desire to elevate my position and incorporate me into a lot of the business development and decision-making processes will ultimately be a better fit long-term for my abilities and skill set. It was quite a shocking thing to be offered full-reign of particular developments and projects considering I have been here for such a short time, but rewarding at the same time to know how much faith they have in my work here. I have the utmost respect for their counter-offer and it has caused me to analyze and re-evaluate what kind of employee and leader I hope to be and ultimately their guidance in this new venture here at [Current Company] has confirmed my decision to stay.

I am so sorry for any inconvenience my decision may cause since you may have told other prospective interviewees that the position was filled and thus I was hoping to be able to speak to you this morning over the phone. Words cannot express the gratitude I have for all the time you have invested in speaking with me, answering any questions, and listening to my situation once I met with my CEO on Friday.

I continue to be impressed with all of the new developments and industry recognition [Prospective Company] continually receives and particularly with the great work the team is planning to roll out with [confidential information] through [Current Company]. Ultimately it comes down to the tough decision to turn down your generous offer, for the equally generous offer from [Current Company] in desiring to keep me here.

I sincerely hope you go not feel any ill-will towards this decision I have made and that both our companies can continue to deliver great work through our partnership together.

I wish you all the best in your future endeavors.

It’s scary to post this. It’s scary to think that this company could find my blog. All of these things are fears. All of these things are anxious thoughts. However I’m choosing to be bold. I’m choosing to believe in the wake of my fears that somehow this is still from God. That I can declare over my anxieties that God is bigger than any corporation. That no matter what decision I make or don’t make, God’s plan for my life will be fulfilled. The good news is..I can’t blow this. I can’t ruin my life. I can choose to refresh my spirit in knowing that His hand is still on me.

Have you ever had to make a tough decision? I’d love to hear in the comments. I pray that if you are facing a tough call today that you choose the option that will make you into the person you believe God wants you to be–even if it is an unpopular choice among your peers.

Found on quotediary.me

Have courage and be kind.

“I have to tell you a secret that will see you through all the trials that life has to offer: have courage and be kind.”

I saw this movie trailer today and it brought me unexpected encouragement. For those of you who keep up with my happenings on this blog you know that I was approached about a potential new job. I was filled with a combination of curiosity and guilt. Curiosity because it is a fantastic company with lots of potential to figure out what I really want to do with my career and guilty because I feel very loyal to my current employer and genuinely love all the people I work with.

Well all of this resolved yesterday when I received a call from the potential new employer and they offered me a substantial raise. I had prayed to God, God I only want this job if it is from you. You brought me to my current job and I love it here, but if my time is up–albeit sooner than I ever thought–make it clear to me. I want them to either choose someone else or offer me a significant raise. And much to my surprise they offered me the latter.

I still have to break the news to my boss during our weekly meetings together tomorrow and I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t very nervous to disappoint him but ultimately I believe this opportunity is too good to pass up and more importantly I believe it is from God. I didn’t look for it. It came to me. In the same way that this current job came to me. God’s ways are not mine, and part of being a Christian is learning to go when He says go, and being okay with being uncomfortable.

I actually found another WordPress Blogger who feels the same way:

“Those times when you feel so led and so scared at the same time….THOSE are the opportunities God wants you to pursue and not because you can handle them alone, but because you can handle them with Him.  And when you choose to obey God and go down those scary, unknown paths….it is then that He knows how much you truly trust Him” – http://michelletraudt.wordpress.com/tag/getting-uncomfortable/

In other words some people love singing the song “Oceans” by Hillsong but not all of them are comfortable in the deep end. I definitely don’t like it..figuratively and literally. But Jesus calls us out on the water into uncomfortable terrain:

Matthew 14 (MSG):

24-26 Meanwhile, the boat was far out to sea when the wind came up against them and they were battered by the waves. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. They were scared out of their wits. “A ghost!” they said, crying out in terror.

27 But Jesus was quick to comfort them. “Courage, it’s me. Don’t be afraid.”

28 Peter, suddenly bold, said, “Master, if it’s really you, call me to come to you on the water.”

29-30 He said, “Come ahead.”

When He calls us out we can take courage in knowing it is Him calling out to us, and therefore we don’t need to be anxious in where we walk out to. If He called us we can go.

I also like Isaiah 51 (MSG) which begins:

1-3 “Listen to me, all you who are serious about right living
    and committed to seeking God.
Ponder the rock from which you were cut,
    the quarry from which you were dug.
Yes, ponder Abraham, your father,
    and Sarah, who bore you.
Think of it! One solitary man when I called him,
    but once I blessed him, he multiplied.
Likewise I, God, will comfort Zion,
    comfort all her mounds of ruins.
I’ll transform her dead ground into Eden,
    her moonscape into the garden of God,
A place filled with exuberance and laughter,
    thankful voices and melodic songs.

in other words I am one solitary woman. But God is calling me and blessing me and multiplying me. I used to loathe going to work before this current job. I have spent many days over the past five months here being transformed. I was in some ways beaten down and discouraged because of the verbal abuse and stress from my last job that in comparison this place was a cakewalk. It restored me to better health. And honestly, I would have been content to stay here for a long time, I was happy to no longer have to look for another job. To rest. But God is never done. He’s not content to leave us in any one condition for too long. My God, the God of the Universe and everything and everyone, He wants to transform everything including me. He wants to make what I see as dead into an Eden..into a paradise. He wants every place to be filled with “exuberance and laughter, thankful voices and melodic songs”. 

While Disney gets it right to an extent by turning what is “dead” or poor or unnoticeable in Cinderella is what God already authored in my life and has been writing into every human heart since the beginning of time. Through taunts and tears and discouragement in my past my Father finally brought me to a green pasture. And being who he is, He’s not content to leave me there. He wants to bring me to the “castle” not because I need Him to, not because I asked Him to, but because He has the power and desire to.

Tuesday Inspiration 10.28.14

Sometimes it can be hard to do daily tasks and jobs that aren’t what we want to do or acknowledged. It’s important to keep things in perspective though. Ultimately we need to remember that even Christ wasn’t showy. Not everyone acknowledged Him and He deserved to be. As Christians we need to realize that our flesh desires to be noticed but spiritually we need to always remember that we are actually meant to be #2.

An excerpt from Colossians 3 MSG:

3-4 Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you’ll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ.

Monday Inspiration 10.27.14

I was unexpectedly approached about a job. Let me clarify that I’m not interested in another job. I am happy with my current job. I am not in a hurry to look elsewhere. I finally feel comfortable. This other offer was out of the blue and instantly I felt guilty and nervous for even reading the e-mail and eventually agreeing to meet over coffee to see if it sounded like something I would be open to interview for. Now I don’t know if this is going to amount to anything. I don’t know if this is a God thing. I don’t know what the outcome might be. I do however know that God will see my through no matter what the situation is.

An excerpt from Proverbs 3 MSG:

Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.

Psalm 32:8 NLT:

The LORD says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.

An excerpt from Isaiah 58 MSG:

Your lives will begin to glow in the darkness,
    your shadowed lives will be bathed in sunlight.
I will always show you where to go.
    I’ll give you a full life in the emptiest of places—
    firm muscles, strong bones.

In other words I don’t need to worry. Even though I didn’t ask for this potential opportunity I am not in this alone. I don’t have to accept it or reject it. I just need to ask for God’s guidance and remember that He has already gone before me. I need not fear.

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Thursday Inspiration 10.23.14

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I located this image online a while back and I really loved that it challenged me to see things differently. Especially on Instagram there are a lot of trends in photography i.e. the infamous selfie. I like photographing and making memories even though my photos aren’t all that great–they make me happy. However a lot of people use Instagram to prove a point or to showcase their lives. There will be fashion bloggers posting themselves in various outfits, photographers posting lovely landscapes, men and women posting daily selfies, food lovers posting yummy dishes, and the list goes on. What’s cool about this quote is that it causes you to stop and reflect on your motives for posting pictures.

I definitely don’t want to point the finger at anyone but I think it could be a good exercise to look at the things you photograph most and see if that tells you anything.

  • Selfies – Are you worried about what you look like? Are you scared to get older? Are you unhappy with what you see in the mirror and like to get validation from others by posting only your best filtered image?
  • Significant other – Are you genuinely happy? Are you afraid to lose that person and take lots of pictures to hold on to the relationship? Are you posting lots of pictures as a way of showing your relationship off to your ex?
  • Food – Are you showing off how many times you go out to eat? Are you afraid of losing the persona you have online? Do you only go to places where you know it will be a good photo op?

Granted some of those projections as to why you might be doing something is far-fetched. I can’t imagine some people doing that—but I can’t discount that there are some people who might be. I’m not saying you can’t enjoy your life and want to share your passions and interests with people but it could be a good way to self-inspect. I think we should always be fruit-inspecting and making sure we aren’t looking for validation and placing self-worth in the hands of other people–especially fickle people on social media who could approve of you one day and turn on you the next. I always want to make sure that my grasp on temporary things is looser than my grasp on eternal things. I used to value relationships, friendships, a social life way higher than necessary and luckily that was before Instagram or I would be lathering the internet with my obsessions. Most of the time without even thinking I post things about my blog or a good Bible verse or church, or a hang out with my volunteer group or family. I’m not saying you can’t take a selfie because you’re having a great hair day that might never happen again, or you can’t take a picture of you and your S.O. because you’re just so in love…haha. But I think we need to be careful not to make idols of these things. There’s this part in the beginning of Isaiah 65 that says:

 “I’ve made myself available
    to those who haven’t bothered to ask.
I’m here, ready to be found
    by those who haven’t bothered to look.
I kept saying ‘I’m here, I’m right here’
    to a nation that ignored me.
I reached out day after day
    to a people who turned their backs on me,
People who make wrong turns,
    who insist on doing things their own way.

I never want to go back to how I was…overly needy for good friends, or a relationship, or a job, or whatever it might be. I can be grateful for those things but I never want to replace God with those things. I want to spend more time talking about Him or to Him than what I’m wearing or who I’m doing life with. Everything in moderation—but I never want to be moderate with God.

Photo Credit:http://www.boho-weddings.com/2013/07/02/365-happiness-project-quote-157/  image had a spelling error that I corrected in MS Paint. (Yes I’m crazy)

Tuesday Inspiration 10.14.14

As awful as life can be and things that happened in our past — it’s important to remember ALWAYS that nothing is wasted. From personal experience I know that statement can make you feel cynical depending on the severity of your pain or horror of your experiences but it doesn’t make it any less true. I was thinking about my ex the other day. I’ve had some dreams the past few weeks and he was there. And at first I chalked it completely up to Satan trying to pick at wounds to see if they still hurt. I haven’t cried. I haven’t thought about it long after I’ve woken up. These are all good things. Signs of recovery even. Signs that pain has healed. I might not be 100% immune to that past sadness but I’m close.

Anyway I was thinking about it again just this morning after another dream, and it made me remember that I let go. There were moments where I questioned letting go even though it was a toxic situation. There were moments where I was grateful to have let go. There were moments of loneliness where I felt like having that relationship, no matter how bad, was better than nothing. There were moments where I’ve allowed the Enemy to whisper lies like no one will ever love me like he did, and really the list goes on and on. And this doesn’t have to be a relationship. I’ve learned over the past few years to let go of a lot of my expectations of what I thought my life should be. Where I should be. Who should be there with me. What I should be doing. And really you begin to realize that all of that stuff is amazing to you, but actually garbage. Sounds harsh right? But it’s true. The things I valued had a shelf life. Meaning they either ended quicker than I thought or were good and just not capable of lasting forever.

As I’m typing this the phrase “every good and perfect thing comes from above”. And it’s true. Do I still wish sometimes I would meet my husband already? Yes. Do I wish I made more money? Yes. Do I still wonder if/when my dad will ever get saved? Yes. Do I have all sorts of hopes and dreams and desires? Yes. But every day needs to be a sacrifice of what you think and want because you know God has better.

In Luke 9 (MSG) Jesus says:

23-27 Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat—I am. Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?

In Matthew 4 (MSG) Jesus says:

18-20 Walking along the beach of Lake Galilee, Jesus saw two brothers: Simon (later called Peter) and Andrew. They were fishing, throwing their nets into the lake. It was their regular work. Jesus said to them, “Come with me. I’ll make a new kind of fisherman out of you. I’ll show you how to catch men and women instead of perch and bass.” They didn’t ask questions, but simply dropped their nets and followed.

21-22 A short distance down the beach they came upon another pair of brothers, James and John, Zebedee’s sons. These two were sitting in a boat with their father, Zebedee, mending their fishnets. Jesus made the same offer to them, and they were just as quick to follow, abandoning boat and father.

I love the simple fact that these men dropped what they were doing. In one story they dropped their nets in the middle of fishing, and in the other, they left their boat and father behind to follow Jesus. Granted today we are not fishermen but this applies. What if your net/what you’ve been trying to catch needs to be dropped. You don’t need to keep going on dates to find the “One”, you don’t need to send out 100 more applications for a job, you don’t need to keep seeking validation from your group of friends, or posting selfies on Instagram hoping to catch attention or praise. You need to drop those nets. You need to step out of the boat you think is going to take you somewhere–maybe it’s a job, maybe it’s a move out of state away from your church, whatever it may be. You need to get out of that boat to follow God on foot even if it seems like that’s the long way to the final destination.

I think we have a tendency to plan our lives and ultimately we risk settling for what we think is a good idea when God has a bigger picture that we can’t see.

What can you do today to leave behind the life you have planned for the one that God has waiting for you?

Photo Credit: http://www.vanessachristenson.com/2011/05/because-im-planner.html

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