It’s a bird, it’s a plane.

The past two nights I’ve had very poor sleep. My brother is back in the hospital being evaluated, tension has been strong in my house, and over really the past year I’ve been thinking about taking a step back from one of my leadership roles at church. I think all of that has contributed to my sleep issues.

Last night I had a weird dream and I think it was somewhat interesting so I’m going to share.

Over really the past month or two, I’ve had sporadic dreams where I’m trying to catch a plane in an airport but everything is delayed or I was too late and missed it.

Last night I was in the airport, and going through bag check and they opened a bonsai tree I had brought with me. It was covered in cellophane and I told them I hadn’t opened it yet. The one man unwrapped the cellophane and out of nowhere when a bird squeezes itself out and feathers fall everywhere.

According to dreammoods.com:

  • To dream that you miss your flight or a connection or that it was cancelled indicates that you are feeling helpless and trapped by some situation. You feel that you are being held back, either physically or mentally. Alternatively, the dream may also suggest that you are feeling disconnected in some aspect of your life – work, relationship or home life

 

  • To dream that you transfer planes implies an important transitional phase in your life which will take you away from your intended path. These changes will take you to new directions and new heights of status and recognition

 

  • To see birds in your dream symbolizes your goals, aspirations and hopes. To dream of chirping and/or flying birds represents joy, harmony, ecstasy, balance, and love. It denotes a sunny outlook in life. You are experiencing spiritual freedom and psychological liberation. It is almost as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.

 

  • I also looked up Bonsai trees on Wikipedia and thought this was interesting:

 

The practice of bonsai development incorporates a number of techniques either unique to bonsai or, if used in other forms of cultivation, applied in unusual ways that are particularly suitable to the bonsai domain. These techniques include:

  • Leaf trimming, the selective removal of leaves (for most varieties of deciduous tree) or needles (for coniferous trees and some others) from a bonsai’s trunk and branches.
  • Pruning the trunk, branches, and roots of the candidate tree.
  • Wiring branches and trunks allows the bonsai designer to create the desired general form and make detailed branch and leaf placements.
  • Clamping using mechanical devices for shaping trunks and branches.
  • Grafting new growing material (typically a bud, branch, or root) into a prepared area on the trunk or under the bark of the tree.
  • Defoliation, which can provide short-term dwarfing of foliage for certain deciduous species.
  • Deadwood bonsai techniques such as jin and shari simulate age and maturity in a bonsai.

 

Bible verses I looked up this  morning:

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    The Great Tree Is Made Small and the Small Tree Great ] God’s Message came to me: “Son of man, make a riddle for the house of Israel. Tell them a story. Say, ‘God, the Master, says: “‘A great eagle with a huge wingspan and long feathers, In full plumage and bright colors, came to Lebanon And took the top off a cedar, broke off the top branch, Took it to a land of traders, and set it down in a city of shopkeepers. Then he took a cutting from the land and planted it in good, well-watered soil, like a willow on a riverbank. It sprouted into a flourishing vine, low to the ground. Its branches grew toward the eagle and the roots became established— A vine putting out shoots, developing branches.
  • Behind and underneath all this there is a holy, God-planted, God-tended root. If the primary root of the tree is holy, there’s bound to be some holy fruit. Some of the tree’s branches were pruned and you wild olive shoots were grafted in. Yet the fact that you are now fed by that rich and holy root gives you no cause to crow over the pruned branches. Remember, you aren’t feeding the root; the root is feeding you.
  • Psalm 91:4

    He will cover you with his feathers,
        and under his wings you will find refuge;
        his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

All in all I think this is supposed to be a good dream. I am going to new places, I have packed everything I needed, and maybe the bonsai tree is to show that God is sill forming and controlling everything, and I can be free like the bird. 

I don’t have to be weighed down, maybe this is validation that stepping back out of that role was a God decision.

What do you think? Anything I missed? Comment below.

Walking On Glass

I wanted to write this down the day I awoke from this dream but it’s been very busy for me the past month and I haven’t been able to write anything I’ve wanted to! Apologies on that.

So here we go.

I haven’t had a recognizable “God dream” in a while. But I definitely think that this was one of them.

On one Monday night in March I had a very short dream. I was walking barefoot outside and sort of..taking in my surroundings and enjoying the fresh air and scenery. I was alone but in the distance I saw a small group of people I knew and sat down on a rock. I put my one leg, or rather ankle, on top of my knee, somewhat cross-legged, and saw something shimmering on the sole of my right foot. I began to inspect and realized it was a shard of glass. I pulled it out. I realized there were lots of them, some big and small, some made me bleed, some hurt, some didn’t. And then I woke up.

I reflected on a few things in the Bible and random thoughts and this is what I came up with:

  • Feet shod with the gospel
  • Pilgrimage
  • Exodus 3 barefoot because standing on Holy Ground

 

Here are some random links Google discovered for me:

I still can’t figure out exactly what I think of it, and was waiting so long to post it, but I don’t want to wait any longer. Would be cool if you had any thoughts on it. If you do, post below!

Jesscbnyc Announcement

Hey guys,

I’ve been keeping a secret since November and now it’s official! I will be contributing content for Horacio Printing !!!

For those of you who might now know, Horacio Printing makes awesome planners that help you organize your life. Sometimes life can deteriorate your plans and dreams and this planner is crucial to make sure that you are cultivating the calling and dreams in your life.

The good news is I will be blogging here and there so nothing is changing. Feel free to subscribe or keep an eye on on the Horacio Blog here.

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Also the planner has been such a huge success that the 2016 version has already sold out!!! But I have some news. There will be a limited re-release of planners for those who missed out on the first run.

Simply go to this link and enter the promo code “preorder” for a 20% off savings!

xoxo,

Jess

32 Hours Left

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Hi lovelies,

Just a friendly reminder that you can support this Kickstarter and get your hands on a beautiful 2016 planner:

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/853621195/the-best-is-yet-to-come-2016-daily-planner

I got my planner this year, 2015. And I love it. It inspires you to dream , plan, and see the goals God has for you this year.

I’ve never met Polly, the founder of Horatio Printing, but she attends my church, Hillsong NYC. I’ve always believed in supporting women, since so many of us have a dream in our hearts that we don’t know how to fulfill. I’m happy for her that she fulfilled her dream to make this planner and that she is pioneering to publish this again in 2016. I want to support women in my local church and I want them to support me.

On a global level, Polly is donating 10% of the proceeds to A21 a non-profit I love to endorse and support.

If you feel so inclined, buy a planner for the woman in your life. Support a girl who followed her dream to make this planner, and support women in Europe whose dreams are dying under the weight of forced slavery.

I truly believe we can make a difference. We can’t do everything but we can do something.

Be blessed,

Jess

Tuesday Inspiration 7.7.15

Sometimes I can forget to take full advantage of my lunch break at work. There’s something so healing about the warm sun on your skin, an ice cream in the park, a walk through the streets. I am creative, I enjoy little things like this, and most days I remember who I want to be.

I want to make an impact on this world.

I want to be a writer.

I want to speak.

I want my blog to be profitable.

I want to visit my Compassion child in Ethiopia.

I want to do a missions trip for sex-trafficking in Thailand.

I want to see all that God has for me.

I want to trust Him more each day.

I want to believe in myself.

Sometimes you just have to get out of your office, your home, your apartment, and take a walk. It puts things into perspective.

Declaration for 2015

So there’s still 9 months to go in 2015 but I want to accept a challenge that was laid out by Rick Warren in the Bible Plan I am reading called “God’s Dream for Your Life”.

Three benefits of telling others about your dream:

1. It gets you started. Once you’ve announced it, you’re accountable to try and get moving.

2. It attracts other people’s support. The moment I stated my dream, other people wanted to get in on it. A dream from God will attract people that you don’t even know yet to help you.

3. It releases God’s power. Because of your faith, you step out of the boat and start walking on water. God will hold you up!

My declaration:

On November 11th 2013 I started this blog. I announced it. I posted. Most of my nearly 200 followers are complete strangers. That in itself is wild. I don’t even have 200 real life friends people! I am so grateful for the transformation that has occurred in me during that time. In a lot of ways I started broken and discouraged and now I am healthy and encouraged! I have a physical timeline of posts where I can revisit old Jess and the raw experiences she had, and compare it to the current Jess who has survived those experiences.

(As I was getting ready to type out my new declaration my WordPress crashed. Luckily my last session which was unsaved mind you came back, but this is an affirmation that this is the right day to declare what I want to see, and that the Enemy does not like declarations!)

1. My dream is to be a powerful speaker. As a girl I would write and illustrate my own books with crayons. As a school girl I used to write poetry and stories. In college I continued to pursue creative writing. It has always been a constant in my life. People have affirmed that I am “real”, that my experiences are powerful and help them. I believe that as insignificant as I often feel, as bitter as I have sometimes felt because of the things I have experienced, that God has purposed me and designed me, and I will reach many people, especially women with my words; both spoken and written. I declare God’s favor and truth over my life and my blog. I invite the Holy Spirit to send people who need encouragement my way. I leave it up to God to grace me with women who have yet to start their own blogs to be encouraged by me and participate in Guest Blog Posts on my site. I believe that I will be a voice to my generation. I believe God can use anyone and I want to be that someone.

2. My dream is that other people will see value in what I post and have to say. I pray that I will stay encouraged when people tell me that “the market is over-saturated” with people who are doing the same things as me. God’s word never returns void and even if I am among many, I know that my unique voice and journey is still valid and important and needed.

3. I pray that even when I do not feel bold or important that my simple vision and declaration in this very post will release God’s power as I continue to take ground, post by post and word by word to declare His glory and release His gifts through me.

I think the crazier life gets the more God needs His people to rise up. To not believe the lies from the world or even from fellow Christians that tell them their dreams are too big, or have been carried out already. Let us believe that our God is big enough to carry an eternity of plans, provision, and dreams, and is just waiting for us to believe that He is good enough to trust us to dispense them on His behalf.

Amen. Amen. Amen.

What is to come

Following Vision Sunday at Hillsong on February 8th I found myself challenged. Our Senior Pastor Brian Houston in Sydney has his own declaration for the global Hillsong family but I want my own declaration and my own personal vision as well. It’s Biblical to have a vision:

Habakkuk 2:2-3 MSG

And then God answered: “Write this.
    Write what you see.
Write it out in big block letters
    so that it can be read on the run.
This vision-message is a witness
    pointing to what’s coming.
It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait!
    And it doesn’t lie.
If it seems slow in coming, wait.
    It’s on its way. It will come right on time.

I want to challenge myself to write my own vision which hopefully I will have to post soon. Things that I see lacking, things that I want changed, things I want to improve for myself, etc.

In one of my iPhone devotionals it also challenged me to identify my purpose and what I love to do. This is something that I am still trying to figure out but I think is a good challenge for creating a vision.

From Day 5 of 21 Days to a Victorious Life:

Day 5–Create His vision for your life 
If you want to achieve victory over your life, you have to create a vision. Not only in one area, but create a vision in your careers, relationships, health and in your spiritual walk with God. In the Bible, God says you have the ability to overcome everything according to Romans 8:37. Yes, everything. Most importantly, you have to understand that your life needs balance if you are to reach your true God given potential as well as fulfilling God’s purpose for your life.
There are countless scriptures that encourage creating a vision. They remind us to write our vision down and it shall come to pass and to declare and decree a thing and it will be established.
So, do you need to create a vision for your life? If so, use this method to create a powerful and purposeful vision.
What Do You Love to Do?
After you have an understanding of what you love to do, commit to do more of it. There was a time over the course of the last few years that I found myself moving at my own speed and not at God’s. Because of this my schedule was always busy and while I was making progress, I wasn’t doing what God had purposed for my life.
Take Inventory
Check in with God. Ask Him what His plan and purpose are for your life. God has put wants in your heart to guide you as you carry out your purpose and His plan. Next, take inventory.
As I began to take inventory, I wrote every single task I performed daily on “Post It” notes. I included serving on several accounting and business boards, running a small business, writing and teaching, spending time with family and friends, and other tasks. Then, I separated these daily tasks into two distinct groups:
• WHAT I LOVE TO DO
• WHAT I DO NOT ENJOY
I made a firm commitment to only do what I love to do and move away from tasks that I did not enjoy. And today, my life is finally in a place where I enjoy everything I do!
Don’t Waste Your Time
After identifying my purpose, which I finally realized was educating and writing, I decided that from that point forward I would only work in my purpose. Now, let me warn you, this choice was met with opposition and a cut in pay; but I wholeheartedly trusted in God’s will. However, from that moment, I received several blessings and earned many recognitions and God has restored my pay. Therefore, I know that I am working in His plan.

Please keep me in prayer as I attempt to complete this challenge and identify goals and dreams for the future.

Photo Credit: Hillsong.com